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Sacrificing self
New documentary profiles gay Naval Academy alumniĀ

‘Out of Annapolis’
Oct. 22 at 9:30 p.m.
U.S. Naval Memorial Theatre
701 Pennsylvania Ave., N.W.
$15

Director Steve Clark Hall during his service days in 1982 off the coast of Connecticut. (Photo courtesy of the filmmaker)
Baltimore resident Frank McNeil remembers with a chuckle some of the tricks of the trade he and his Marine Corps buddies ā the few who were out to each other ā used to keep handy during their years at North Carolina’s Marine Corps Base Camp Lejeune where he was stationed in the ’80s.
There was a gay bar in nearby Jacksonville, N.C., ironically dubbed Secrets. But partying there was too dangerous because military police would routinely troll the Secrets parking lot for cars with military stickers, trace the owners and confront them.
McNeil wormed his way out of getting busted a few times ā enough to learn Secrets was too close to home to patronize.
“‘So, Corp. McNeil, why was your car parked at a gay bar?'” McNeil remembers the conversation unfolding. “‘Uhhh, I loaned it to a friend.’ You just learned not to go out in Jacksonville, most of us went out in Wilmington, which was like an hour away. So you could go out and have fun but your guard was up, or at least mine was.”
McNeil left the military in 1991, before “Don’t’ Ask, Don’t Tell” was enacted. His story and 10 others are told in the new film “Out of Annapolis,” a documentary that will be screened as half of a double bill at the U.S. Naval Memorial Theatre in Washington Oct. 22. It’s one of three films being screened this month as a mini Reel Affirmations festival as the LGBT film marathon has moved its usual lineup from October to April.
Director Steve Clark Hall, a San Francisco Navy vet whose own story is shared in the film, says he was inspired to make the documentary because he was tired of seeing gays misrepresented.
“I’m just trying to put a real face on who we are,” Hall says. “Everything we see so misrepresents us, so we started with a website three-and-a-half years ago. Who are these people? You know, gays are always assumed to be these other people. Not people we know. Not who we are, but then all of a sudden it’s like, ‘Oh, gays are my good friends or my neighbors.'”
Hall, who spent 20 years in the Navy, says he was “about as out as one could be without having gay tattooed on my forehead. I didn’t raise my hand and say, ‘I’m gay, kick me out.’ I think it wasn’t much of a problem for me because I was always a team player. Always an asset.”
McNeil had an especially rough time keeping his personal and professional life in balance. In those pre-“Don’t Ask” years, he only confided in a “very select” group of friends about his sexual orientation. His late partner, Chris Duncan, was battling AIDS, a factor in McNeil’s eventual resignation.
“It brought a lot of mixed feelings because I really loved what I was doing, but you just couldn’t share completely,” he says. “You couldn’t have your partner’s picture out. You had to change your pronouns. ⦠There was a sense of dismay that you couldn’t quite be honest with the people you were serving.”
“Out of Annapolis” started in the summer of 2008 as an undertaking of the United States Naval Academy OUT ā a group of LGBT U.S. Naval Academy alumni and their supporters. Hall, a novice filmmaker, says the project, which included a study of the experiences of gay alumni, aims to educate the public about the experiences of gay service members before and during “Don’t Ask, Don’t Tell.” Participants were selected to give a good cross-representation of experiences. About 300 participated in the study, 75 were interviewed and 11 were chosen for the film.
“It was tough to pare it down,” Hall says. “We had some great stories we had to turn away because it would have over-represented a certain group.”
The movie debuted in New York in June and has been making the rounds of LGBT film festivals since. Hall and five others, including McNeil, will be at the D.C. screening, its local premiere.
“It’s very powerful,” says Larry Guillemette, Reel Affirmations festival chair. “I think it will resonate a great deal given the defeat our community just experienced on the ‘Don’t Ask, Don’t Tell’ legislation. I think it will hopefully galvanize people to get more involved.”
Perhaps ironically, Hall didn’t conceive the project as an anti-“Don’t Ask” manifesto. The policy is hardly mentioned in the film.
“Some of it is just chronology,” he says. “Some of the people we profiled served before the policy began. But the film interestingly doesn’t sit there and try to make an argument, but in some ways just hearing the stories makes it the greatest argument against ‘Don’t Ask, Don’t Tell’ because people can see what it was really like trying to live under the law. We were forced to be two different people and you just can’t be.”
PHOTO: Frank McNeil at his home in Baltimore (Blade photo by Michael Key)
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Queer movies and shows to watch this summer
āBrokebackā returns, a Sally Ride doc, and much more

Summer is upon us, and so is Pride month, which means a whole crop of queer-flavored movies and shows are ready to blossom onto our nearest screen over the next few weeks; and as always, the Blade is here with a handy guide to help you fill out your watchlist.
I Donāt Understand You
First up is this pitch-black horror comedy starring Nick Kroll and Andrew Rannells as a gay American couple (and soon-to-be-adoptive-daddies) celebrating their 10th anniversary with a trip to Italy. Unfortunately, neither of them speaks Italian, and the resulting language barrier creates a series of mishaps and misunderstandings that turns their dream vacation into a farcical travelerās nightmare. Co-created by real-life gay couple Brian Crano and David Joseph Craig (who also directed), itās got an authentic queer voice behind it, and a pair of talented and funny lead actors to make it work; itās also got a nice collection of good reviews behind it from its debut at 2024ās SXSW and other festivals, which makes it a strong opener for your summertime slate. 6/6, in theaters
Loulou
Directed by NoĆ«lle P. Soulier, this thoughtful trans coming-of-age/coming-out story centers on a closeted 17-year-old teen (Kevin Curtis) struggling with her identity while trying to cope with harassment at school and the pressure of living with her strict Catholic parents (Desean Terry and Reiko Aylesworth). Pushed to the church, she finds unexpected solace, encouraging her to start a journey toward self-acceptance ā something that includes a new relationship with her own ex-bully (Spencer Belko), who has been struggling with some identity issues of his own. Also starring Patrika Darbo as a sympathetic nun, this gentle story about trans experience seems like a welcome beacon of support at a time when we really need one. 6/6, VOD
Sally
Directed and produced by Cristina Costantini, this documentary from National Geographic explores the life and career of Sally Ride, who became the first American woman to blast off into space. Itās not just the story of her historic achievement, however, but the story of her 27-year romance and relationship with life partner, Tam OāShaughnessy, who reveals the full personal journey of Americaās LGBTQ astronaut for the very first time. 6/16, NatGeo; 6/17, Hulu, Disney+
Brokeback Mountain
No, thatās not a misprint and youāre not having a flashback to 2005, because the game-changing Ang Lee-directed drama about two cowboys in love is returning to theaters for a series of special screenings to celebrate its 20th anniversary. If youāre anything like us, you probably āwish you could quitā this powerful, heartbreaking, and tragically beautiful masterpiece ā but we all know we never will. Why not celebrate that special bond by seeing it again on the big screen? Beginning 6/20, in theaters
The Gilded Age (Season 3)
Back for another round of sumptuously costumed, lavishly decorated intrigue among the ostentatiously wealthy high society class of late 19th-century New York (and those entangled in their world), the newest installment of this intrinsically queer period soap opera finds a definite shift in dynamics taking place after last season left the major players of theĀ āold guardā weakened and the social-climbing ānew moneyā crowd poised to take their place at the top of the pecking order. Promising the return of its sprawling cast ā which includes queer fan favorites like Christine Baranski, Cynthia Nixon, Carrie Coon, Nathan Lane, and more, not to mention an ever-expanding host of Broadway greats to fill out the supporting cast and guest star roster ā as well as the savvy perspective of show creator Julian Fellowes (āDownton Abbey,ā which also returns later this year for a swan song on the big screen) to ensure its status as both artful social observation and āguilty pleasureā escapism, itās probably already on your list if youāre a fan. If youāre not, thereās still time to catch up with the first two seasons before this one drops. 6/22, HBO Max
King of Drag
Move over, RuPaul, because the first major Drag King competition series is making its debut on queer streaming service Revry, where it plans on āserving you bold, brilliant, and unapologetic talent like never beforeā and celebrating āmasculinity in all its forms.ā Hosted by legendary trans New York drag king Murray Hill, it will feature regular judges Gottmik, Sasha Velour, Tenderoni, Wang Newton, and Revry co-founder Damian Pelliccione, as well as a list of guest judges that includes Jackie Beat, Cole Escola, Landon Cider, Lisa Rinna, and more. 6/22, Revry
Ironheart
Queer Marvel fans will certainly be on board for this new miniseries from the MCU, which is set after the events of the film āBlack Panther: Wakanda Foreverā and follows young genius inventor Riri Williams (Dominique Thorne) as she embraces her evolution into the titular superhero in her hometown of Chicago. Reportedly establishing the lead character as bisexual, the series (created by Chinaka Hodge) also continues the Marvel franchiseās efforts toward diversity and inclusion with the introduction of a transgender character and the casting of transmasculine actor Zoe Terakes and āDrag Raceā star Shea CouleĆ© in supporting roles. āHamiltonā and āIn the Heightsā star Anthony Ramos co-stars as Parker Robbins (aka āThe Hoodā). 6/24, Disney+
The Ultimatum: Queer Love (Season 2)
For fans of reality TV competition, this popular show ā a spin-off from āThe Ultimatum: Marry or Move Onā ā returns with a set of six new couples (made up of women and non-binary people), who must put their love to the test by moving in with other partners to determine if theyāre ready for marriage ā or simply ready for someone else. 6/25, Netflix
Hot Milk
Adapted from the 2016 novel by Deborah Levy, this coming-of-age drama from filmmaker Rebecca Lenkiewicz follows Sofia (Emma Mackey) as she accompanies her domineering, wheelchair-bound mother (Fiona Shaw) to a questionable clinic in Spain in search of treatment, and is tempted by a tantalizing new life in the form of a local seamstress (Vicky Krieps). With a literary pedigree to balance its air of soft-core steaminess, this one appeals to us on the basis of its captivating cast alone. 6/27, limited theaters
M3GAN 2.0
The hot movie ticket this summer is likely to be for this sequel to 2022ās campy comedic cult horror hit, in which a murderous rogue AI-powered doll goes on a rampage after becoming self-aware before being destroyed ā or at least, apparently. Three years later, M3GANās creator (Allison Williams) is now an advocate for oversight on Artificial Intelligence, but when a new and deadly android (Ivanna Sakhno) is created as a military weapon from her stolen plans, she must risk resurrecting her original invention in order to stop an even greater threat to humanity. Violet McGraw returns as Williamsā now-teenaged niece, as do Amie Donald and Jenna Davis as the title characterās body and voice, respectively. 6/27, in theaters
Ponyboi
Highly anticipated is this neo-noir thriller from director Esteban Arango, written by and starring intersex actor, filmmaker, and activist River Gallo, which is finally getting a theatrical release nearly a year and a half after its acclaimed debut at the 2024 Sundance Festival. Adapted and expanded from a 2019 short film by Gallo, it follows a young intersex sex worker (Gallo), whose messy personal life ā his best friend (Victoria Pedretti) is pregnant, and the father is his own pimp/boyfriend (Dylan OāBrien) ā gets even messier when a drug deal gone bad puts him on the run from the mob. Galloās performance has earned copious praise, and the fact that itās a whole movie centered on an intersex person ā surely a rarity, if not a first, in commercial American filmmaking ā makes it even more of a must-see. 6/27, in theaters
Sorry, Baby
Another Sundance favorite makes its way to theaters in the form of this dark comedy-drama from first-time writer/director/star Eva Victor, who plays Agnes, a woman still recovering from a sexual assault by a trusted figure in her past, who has tried to move on butĀ realizes how āstuckā she still is after a close friend makes a milestone announcement. Despite the heavy subject matter, itās earned its acclaim ā and the resultant buzz that enticed top flight distributor A24 to snap up the rights ā by approaching it with a hefty dose of absurdist humor, as it peels back the onion of the ābad thingā that happened to finally set Agnes on a course toward healing through a series of five āchaptersā in her life. Itās been described as a ātrauma-dyā ā and frankly, we think thatās enough to make it irresistible. 6/27, in theaters
Freakier Friday
You might be tempted to say this is the sequel that nobody asked for ā but you know youāre going to be there for it. The perennial parent/child identity swap franchise (spawned by a sharp-witted novel from Broadway royalty Mary Rodgers) reinvents itself yet again with the return of Jamie Lee Curtis and Lindsay Lohan as a mother and daughter who, decades after having swapped bodies due to a mystical incident involving a fortune cookie, find themselves once again switching places on the eve of a milestone wedding. We have no idea if thereās any queer-relevant story elements here; we just know most of us will be fully on board, if only for the nostalgia and the undying appeal of its queer-fan favorite stars. 8/8, in theaters
Lurker
Touted as āa screw-turning psychological thriller made for the momentā and directed by Alex Russell (writer/producer of the acclaimed shows āThe Bearā and āBeefā), this dark pop cultural commentary focuses on a young LA loner (ThĆ©odore Pellerin) who has a chance encounter with a rising pop star (Archie Madekwe) and uses it to infiltrate his āentourageā ā only to find himself caught up in an ever-escalating competition for attention, access, and proximity to āfameā that soon becomes āa matter of life and death.ā A buzzy, paranoid, and grimly exhilarating exploration of the music industry, fandom, and āour universal search for validation,ā this creepy but enticing suspenser scores extra points from us for leaning into a homoerotic subtext and serving up the sweaty wrestling scenes to prove it. 8/22, in theaters
Honey Donāt!
The second of a planned āLesbian B-Movie Trilogyā from filmmaker Ethan Coen and his wife Tricia Cooke (which began with last yearās āDrive Away Dollsā), this neo-noir-ish dark comedy stars Margaret Qualley (āThe Substanceā) as a lesbian private eye who is led by a case into a series of strange deaths centered around a mysterious church. Itās the kind of movie for which the less you know about it, the better it probably plays, so we wonāt say much more ā except that its cast includes heavyweights Aubrey Plaza, Billy Eichner, and Chris Evans. We say, āhoney, DO.ā 8/22, in theaters
Twinless
Coming on the cusp of fall, filmmaker James Sweeneyās eagerly awaited black comedy (do we detect a common thread in this summerās selection, or is it just us?) is yet another Sundance darling, bolstered even further by the controversial gay sex scenes that were leaked online by fans of teen-heartthrob-turned-A-lister Dylan OāBrien (playing gay again for his second appearance on our list), who co-stars with Sweeney himself in this oddball story about two young queer men who meet in a support group for bereaved twins and form a sexually intense friendship with each other. Praised by critics for its āseamlessā integration of queer themes into a compelling (if unusual) narrative, thereās been a lot of delay and reshuffled plans around its official release date ā but now itās officially set to be our final treat for a summer full of queer entertainment. 9/5, in theaters
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āPee-weeā spills the tea in outstanding new documentary
Reubensās sexuality emerges as the showās focus

Most of us who have lived long enough to get nostalgic for our formative years have, by now, watched enough documentaries about a beloved entertainment icon from our past to know what to expect when a new one comes along.
Such offerings are typically slick biographical portraits blending archival material with newly filmed ātalking headā reminiscences and commentaries, and perhaps punctuated by eye-catching animations or other flourishes to add an extra layer of visual interest; heavy on the nostalgia and mostly reverent in tone, they satisfy us with pleasant memories, supplement our knowledge with behind-the-history insights and revelations, and leave us ā ideally ā with a renewed appreciation and a reinforced feeling of comfortable familiarity. Many of them are little more than retrospectives, more glossy tribute than in-depth profile; occasionally, a few go beyond the surface to give us a deeper sense of personal connection with their subject ā but rarely enough, even in the best of them, to make us feel as if we know them well.
No matter how many of these docs you have seen, however, or jaded your expectations may be when you approach it, āPee-wee as Himselfā is still going to surprise you.
Directed by filmmaker Matt Wolf, the two-part HBO docuseries ā which premiered May 23 and is now streaming on Max ā is built around material culled from 40 hours of interview footage with the late Paul Reubens (the creator and performer behind nerdy, manic cultural phenomenon and childrenās show host āPee-wee Herman,ā for anyone that needs to be told), and conducts a āguided tourā of Reubensā singular career in the limelight. The first installment traces a path from his Florida childhood through his early adventures as an actor and performance artist in Los Angeles to his rapid rise to fame and the popularity of his carefully crafted alter-ego; part two continues the story to explore the expansion of his fame through the phenomenon of āPee-weeās Playhouse,ā but soon shifts gears to cover his sudden fall from grace after a notorious āpublic indecencyā arrest in an adult theater, and the subsequent accusations of collecting āchild pornographyā that unfairly branded him as a pedophile in the public eye ā and comes full circle to document his return to favor as an underdog hero for the generation that had grown up watching him.
Besides its detailed chronicle of these already-well-known chapters in Reubensā life, however, Wolfās doc (and Reubens, via frequent commentary throughout) delves into publicly uncharted territory to give us a look at something weāve never been allowed to see before: Paul Reubens himself.
That includes, of course, removing any ambiguity that might remain about the sexuality of the man behind the bow tie, who never publicly identified as gay before his death from cancer in 2023. Itās not so much a ācoming outā ā after all, he artfully teased his queerness to fans for years ā as it is a dropping of pretense. Thereās no need for a definitive statement announcing something that everybody already knew, anyway.
Thatās not to say he skirts the issue as he delivers his full-frame close-up testimonial to the camera; on the contrary, he reflects often and with bittersweet candor about the carefully-managed matter of his sexuality ā or the publicās perception of it, at any rate ā with the matter-of-fact eloquence of someone whoās spent a lot of time thinking about it. He openly discusses his choice to keep the closet door closed on his personal life in order to preserve Pee-wee’s ambiguously wholesome yet irresistibly subversive persona in the publicās imagination, and to abandon his openly queer life (as well as a loving long term relationship, one of the seriesā biggest ārevealsā) to do so.āI was as out as you could be,ā he reflects with rueful irony, āand then I went back in the closet.ā
Indeed, itās Reubensās sexuality that ultimately emerges as the showās core focus ā even more than the rich treasure trove of personal photos, home movies, behind-the-scenes footage, and all the other fan-thrilling delights it provides ā and gives it a larger significance, perhaps than even the man himself. Itās a thread that runs through his story, impacting his choices and the trajectory of his career, and reflecting the familiar shared experience of many audience members who may be able to relate; later, it manifests on a societal level, as Wolf and his subject explore the homophobic attitudes behind the legal persecution that would bring his rising star into a tailspin and hang over his reputation for the rest of his life. It serves as both a reminder of the power of cultural bigotry to repress queerness and a cautionary tale about the personal cost of repressing oneself.
A good number of Reubensā longtime friends (like Cassandra Petersen, aka āElvira, Mistress of the Dark,ā āBuffy the Vampire Slayerā costar David Arquette, and former āgirlfriendā Debi Mazar, who provided support, acceptance, and companionship in the wake of his legal troubles) come along for the ride, offering their own reminiscences and insights into the official record, as well as lesser-known members of an inner circle that comprised the late artistās chosen family. Yet all these testimonials, authentic as they may be, are not what enable āPee-wee as Himselfā to bring us closer to the real Paul Reubens. Itās Reubens himself who does that.
Maintaining an ambiguously hostile edge in his interviews, bringing to light a clash for control between himself and director Wolf with as much clarity as he illuminates the vast archival material that is shown to document his career, he demonstrates firsthand the need to manage his own narrative, balking at, even openly resisting, certain questions and interpretations that arise throughout. It gives the real Reubens the same vague menace with which Pee-wee was also infused ā and also creates a sort of meta-narrative, in which the conflict between subject and director must also be resolved before the story can truly achieve closure, calling into question whether Reubens (a veteran of avant-garde theater and lifelong fan of the circus) might not be adding yet another layer of mystery and performance to his image even as he gets honest publicly for the very first time.
That closure eventually comes in the form of a voice recording made by Reubens the day before his death ā after a six year battle with lung cancer (he was a heavy smoker, another personal detail he painstakingly hid from the public) which, save for those in his innermost circle, he never revealed until the end ā in which he delivers a final message to the world. With it, he finally accomplishes what he never could during his life, and lets us see, at last, who he was when he wasnāt being Pee-wee.
And itās a beautiful thing.
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Gay director on revealing the authentic Pee-wee Herman
New HBO doc positions Reubens as āgroundbreakingā performance artist

In the new HBO two-part documentary, āPee-wee as Himself,ā director Matt Wolf gives viewers a never-before-seen look into the personal life of Paul Reubens, the comedic actor behind the much loved television persona, Pee-wee Herman.
Filmed before Reubens passed away in 2023 from cancer, Wolf and his creative team created the riveting documentary, interspersing several interviews, more than 1,000 hours of archival footage, and tens of thousands of personal photos.
Determined to set the record straight about what really happened, Reubens discussed his diverse influences, growing up in the circus town of Sarasota, Fla., and his avant-garde theater training at the California Institute of the Arts.
Ruebens joined the Groundlings improv group, where he created the charismatic Pee-wee Herman. He played the quirky character during the Saturday morning show, āPee-wee’s Playhouse,ā and in numerous movies, like āPee-wee’s Big Adventureā and āBig Top Pee-wee.ā He also brought Pee-wee to Broadway, with āThe Pee-wee Herman Show.ā
To get an enigma such as Reubens to open up was no easy task for Wolf.
āI felt determined to get Paul to open up and to be his authentic self,ā acknowledged Wolf at a recent press conference. āAnd I was being tested and I wanted to meet my match in a way so I didnāt feel frustrated or exhausted, I felt determined but I also, it was thrilling to go this deep. Iāve never been able, or I donāt know if I ever will, go this deep with another human being to interview them in an intimate way for over 40 hours.ā
Wolf described the collaborative interview experience as a dream, ālike we were in a bubble where time didnāt matter.ā he also felt a deep connection to the material, having come of age watching āPee-weeās Playhouse.ā
āI wouldnāt have been able to put words to it at the time, but I think it was my first encounter with art that I felt emotionally involved in,ā noted Wolf.
āHe continued: āI recognize that that show created a space for a certain kind of radical acceptance where creativity thrives. And as a gay filmmaker, I also recognize things like Pee-wee Herman marrying a bowl of fruit salad at a slumber party or dancing in high heels to the song, āFever.ā That stuff spoke to me. So that was my connection to it.ā
During the documentary, Reubens comes out as a gay man.
āPaul went into this process wanting to come out,ā said Wolf. āThat was a decision he had made. He was aware that I was a gay filmmaker and had made portraits of other gay artists. That was the work of mine he was attracted to, as I understood. And I wanted, as a younger person, to support him in that process, but he also was intensely sensitive that the film would overly emphasize that; or, focused entirely from the lens of sexuality when looking at his story.ā
Their complicated dynamic had an aspect of āpush and pullā between them.
āI think that generational difference was both a source of connection and affinity and tension. And I do think that the level to which Paul discusses his relationships and intimacy and vulnerability and the poignant decision he made to go back into the closet. I do have to believe to some extent he shared that because of our connection.ā
Wolf hopes that the āPee-wee as Himselfā positions Reubens as one of the most āgroundbreakingā performance artists of his generation who in a singular way broke through into mainstream pop culture.
āI know he transformed me. He transformed how I see the world and where I went as a creative person. And itās so clear that I am not alone in that feeling. For me, it was fairly abstract. I couldnāt necessarily put words to it. I think people who grew up on Pee-wee or were big fans of Pee-wee, seeing the film, I hope, will help them tap into intangible and specific ways how transformative his work was for them. It really is a gift to revisit early seminal experiences you had and to see how they reverberate in you.ā
He added: āSo, to me, this isnāt so much about saying Paul Reubens is a genius. I mean, thatās overly idealizing and I donāt like hero worship. Itās more about understanding why many of us have connected to his work and understanding where he lives within a legacy of performance art, television, and also, broader pop culture.ā