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Sacrificing self
New documentary profiles gay Naval Academy alumniĀ
‘Out of Annapolis’
Oct. 22 at 9:30 p.m.
U.S. Naval Memorial Theatre
701 Pennsylvania Ave., N.W.
$15

Director Steve Clark Hall during his service days in 1982 off the coast of Connecticut. (Photo courtesy of the filmmaker)
Baltimore resident Frank McNeil remembers with a chuckle some of the tricks of the trade he and his Marine Corps buddies ā the few who were out to each other ā used to keep handy during their years at North Carolina’s Marine Corps Base Camp Lejeune where he was stationed in the ’80s.
There was a gay bar in nearby Jacksonville, N.C., ironically dubbed Secrets. But partying there was too dangerous because military police would routinely troll the Secrets parking lot for cars with military stickers, trace the owners and confront them.
McNeil wormed his way out of getting busted a few times ā enough to learn Secrets was too close to home to patronize.
“‘So, Corp. McNeil, why was your car parked at a gay bar?'” McNeil remembers the conversation unfolding. “‘Uhhh, I loaned it to a friend.’ You just learned not to go out in Jacksonville, most of us went out in Wilmington, which was like an hour away. So you could go out and have fun but your guard was up, or at least mine was.”
McNeil left the military in 1991, before “Don’t’ Ask, Don’t Tell” was enacted. His story and 10 others are told in the new film “Out of Annapolis,” a documentary that will be screened as half of a double bill at the U.S. Naval Memorial Theatre in Washington Oct. 22. It’s one of three films being screened this month as a mini Reel Affirmations festival as the LGBT film marathon has moved its usual lineup from October to April.
Director Steve Clark Hall, a San Francisco Navy vet whose own story is shared in the film, says he was inspired to make the documentary because he was tired of seeing gays misrepresented.
“I’m just trying to put a real face on who we are,” Hall says. “Everything we see so misrepresents us, so we started with a website three-and-a-half years ago. Who are these people? You know, gays are always assumed to be these other people. Not people we know. Not who we are, but then all of a sudden it’s like, ‘Oh, gays are my good friends or my neighbors.'”
Hall, who spent 20 years in the Navy, says he was “about as out as one could be without having gay tattooed on my forehead. I didn’t raise my hand and say, ‘I’m gay, kick me out.’ I think it wasn’t much of a problem for me because I was always a team player. Always an asset.”
McNeil had an especially rough time keeping his personal and professional life in balance. In those pre-“Don’t Ask” years, he only confided in a “very select” group of friends about his sexual orientation. His late partner, Chris Duncan, was battling AIDS, a factor in McNeil’s eventual resignation.
“It brought a lot of mixed feelings because I really loved what I was doing, but you just couldn’t share completely,” he says. “You couldn’t have your partner’s picture out. You had to change your pronouns. ⦠There was a sense of dismay that you couldn’t quite be honest with the people you were serving.”
“Out of Annapolis” started in the summer of 2008 as an undertaking of the United States Naval Academy OUT ā a group of LGBT U.S. Naval Academy alumni and their supporters. Hall, a novice filmmaker, says the project, which included a study of the experiences of gay alumni, aims to educate the public about the experiences of gay service members before and during “Don’t Ask, Don’t Tell.” Participants were selected to give a good cross-representation of experiences. About 300 participated in the study, 75 were interviewed and 11 were chosen for the film.
“It was tough to pare it down,” Hall says. “We had some great stories we had to turn away because it would have over-represented a certain group.”
The movie debuted in New York in June and has been making the rounds of LGBT film festivals since. Hall and five others, including McNeil, will be at the D.C. screening, its local premiere.
“It’s very powerful,” says Larry Guillemette, Reel Affirmations festival chair. “I think it will resonate a great deal given the defeat our community just experienced on the ‘Don’t Ask, Don’t Tell’ legislation. I think it will hopefully galvanize people to get more involved.”
Perhaps ironically, Hall didn’t conceive the project as an anti-“Don’t Ask” manifesto. The policy is hardly mentioned in the film.
“Some of it is just chronology,” he says. “Some of the people we profiled served before the policy began. But the film interestingly doesn’t sit there and try to make an argument, but in some ways just hearing the stories makes it the greatest argument against ‘Don’t Ask, Don’t Tell’ because people can see what it was really like trying to live under the law. We were forced to be two different people and you just can’t be.”
PHOTO: Frank McNeil at his home in Baltimore (Blade photo by Michael Key)
Movies
āMaddieās Secretā defies campy expectations
An over-the-top, old-school melodrama combined with modern satire
Sometimes, when you think you know what to expect from a movie, it doesnāt match those expectations. What do you do then?
Iām not talking about the unmet expectations of fans, like those who complain that Kubrickās āThe Shiningā made sweeping changes from Stephen Kingās novel, or start a social media campaign trashing the latest āStar Warsā or āMarvelā film because of a plot twist they donāt like. Those are complaints about content, about a story not going the way it is āsupposedā to go.
Iām referring to the expectations we have when we walk into a movie thinking that itās going to have a particular tone, a specific style, a familiar formula ā essentially that it is going to easily fit into a comfortable box, and stay there. What happens when it doesnāt?
Thatās the question I found myself asking as I watched āMaddieās Secret,ā the directorial debut from gay actor/comedian John Early, which is now screening in a limited theatrical release. Itās the story of a humble housewife whose doting husband persuades her to turn her love of cooking into a career as a virally popular āfood influencer,ā only to find that her sudden success triggers traumatic feelings from her childhood; clearly a contemporized hybrid of the melodramatic āwomanās picturesā of Old Hollywood and the āAfterschool Specialā style cautionary dramas of ā70s/ā80s TV, it has all the earmarks of being an exercise in ācampā ā especially since Early himself stars as Maddie.
To put it plainly, itās an over-the-top old-school melodrama combined with modern-day satire of online social media fame, with a gay man in a dress playing the lead. What could be campier than that?
And it is campy, make no mistake. Yet at the same time, somehow, it isnāt. From its opening scene (which shows us Maddie as she jogs to her dishwashing job at the headquarters of an LA test kitchen/content studio named āGourmaybeā), we expect things to get wacky. The ingredients are definitely present for it, like her aggressively butch co-worker/BFF Deena (Kate Berlant), who is clearly nursing a serious āgirl crushā; bitchy TikTok star Emily (Claudia O’Doherty), who demeans her and ridicules her ambitions of being a chef; and boss Zach (Connor OāMalley), a womanizing corporate ābroā who enthusiastically embraces all the toxic traits we associate with that description.
As the story opens up beyond her workplace, there are more elements that feel ripe for the kind of histrionic humor we might expect from a film by John Waters, or the stylish old-school parody of Charles Busch, or even the radicalized sexual transgression of Bruce La Bruce: Maddieās adorably bearish husband Jake (Eric Rahill) could be made into a goofy caricature with a food fetish, and her estranged, abusive mother Beverlee (Kristen Johnston in a deliciously grotesque performance) is easily monstrous enough to be at the campy center of any āhag horrorā from the ā60s.
And when we finally discover her āsecretā (spoiler alert: itās an eating disorder that returns when the pressures of being a popular social media chef bring up old feelings about her relationship with food), itās easy to imagine a different filmmaker taking the whole thing in a thoroughly savage direction; the potential for tasteless, excessive, and deliberately juvenile comedy might be limitless, in the hands of a director unafraid of being branded āoffensive.ā
Itās hard not to see all these possibilities on hand as we watch Earlyās film ā which he also wrote ā and (for myself, anyway) hard not to hope they all play out to maximum outrageous effect.
They donāt. Instead, āMaggieās Secretā does something so unexpected that it feels, at first, like a mistake: it decides to play things straight.
Itās still a comedy, make no mistake, but itās not the kind of comedy we think itās going to be. It doesnāt go for over-the-top anarchy; it doesnāt go for the bitch-slapping catfight between rival divas, or for the running parade of filthy double-entendres, or for the absurd āgross-outā humor that might have emerged from its scenes of binge-and-purge overeating. Well, okay, maybe it does go for that last one, a little bit.
What all this comes down to, perhaps, is that the film gets its laughs ā and there are quite a lot of them ā without making fun of itself or, more importantly, its characters. The comedy here is built into the story; it comes from its send-up of social media influencers, corporate content creation, media tie-ins, and all the other interlocked microcosms of our ānew, now, nextā digital culture; it comes from the foibles and fumbles of its characters as they pursue their objectives in the story, from the qualities and quirks of their personalities, from their simply being funny because they feel like being funny; and yes, it sometimes comes from the obvious cliches of form that we recognize, the plot formulas and sudden revelations and shocking twists that have emerged time and time again in these kinds of domestic melodramas, but it does so good-naturedly, in a way that feels like laughing āwithā the movie than laughing āatā it.
It also never diminishes or ridicules the seriousness of Maddieās eating disorder, nor the experiences that come for her when she (spoiler alert, again) ends up going into an inpatient facility to be treated for it; though these later scenes come populated with their own set of stereotypical characters, ready to be exploited, the movie may poke gentle fun, but it humanizes them, too, helping build the film toward an emotional climax that leaves us with the kind of satisfying uncertainty we donāt quite expect from a movie like this one.
Most significantly, perhaps, it never gets its laughs out of the fact that Maddie is being played by a man ā and itās this that makes Earlyās film feel more profound than we expect it to be. Itās not a ādragā movie, or a cross-dressing comedy, or anything to do with Maddieās gender at all. She is a woman, presented without exaggeration or irony, and she just happens to be portrayed by a male actor instead of a female one. Thereās no joke involved, just an excellent performance.
This is an apt approach, considering that Early cites Watersā 1974 āFemale Troubleā as his inspiration for āMaddieās Secret.ā Though he sets aside the extremes of that classic in favor of nuance and kindness, he takes his cue from its star ā the incomparable Divine, who never called himself a drag queen but considered himself an actor playing a part. Early does the same, and it makes his film into a kind of full-circle moment in queer āundergroundā cinema (if a premiere at the 2025 Toronto International Film Festival, where āMaddieās Secretā screened to enthusiastic response, can be called āundergroundā) which pays homage to the legacy of a past icon while picking up the mantle and carrying it in a new ā and unexpected ā direction.
Thatās the thing about expectations: sometimes they are left unfulfilled ā and in answer to my own question, as I watched this uniquely winning queer indie gem, what happens just might be something wonderful.
Movies
Greg Araki still wants your sex
Shrewd, sexy film may be the most fun youāll have this summer
Greg Araki may not have been solely responsible for the āNew Queer Cinemaā movement of the 1990s, but he certainly gave it an edge.
From early low-budget groundbreakers like āThe Living Endā (1992) through his āTeen Apocalypse Trilogyā (1993-97) and beyond, his films have subverted cinematic tropes with queer characters and themes and co-opted them into his own unique brand of filmic storytelling ā extreme, campy, and transgressive ā in which his queer characters were usually framed as sexual outlaws, flawed and anti-heroic outsiders who disregard not only sexual conventions, but often the law and the social order itself.
In subsequent decades, heās continued to bring that same fiercely counter-cultural swagger to a surprisingly diverse array of projects, from the melancholy and critically acclaimed āMysterious Skinā (2004) to the first-ever Cannes Queer Palm winner āKaboomā (2010). And though itās been 12 years since his last feature film release (āWhite Bird in a Blizzardā), heās brought his twisted talents under the radar to helm episodes of popular TV shows like ā13 Reasons Why,ā āRiverdale,ā and āMonster: The Jeffrey Dahmer Story.ā
Now, heās back to the big screen with āI Want Your Sex,ā a new erotic comedy-thriller that proves he hasnāt lost that edge. In fact, he may have honed it to a sharpness that cuts deeper than ever ā and heās aimed it not only at the moralistic posturing of mainstream attitudes around carnality, but at the thinly veiled high end consumerism that drives the world of avant-garde art.
Structured with a nod to āSunset Boulevardā ā it begins with a shocking āface down in a swimming poolā moment that is then explained in flashback ā and flavored with the kind of sexual anarchy that rarely manages to penetrate the cultural mainstream, itās the quintessentially āL.A.ā story of Elliot (Cooper Hoffman), a perennially down on his luck 23-year-old would-be podcaster who manages to land a job as an assistant to multi-media artist Erika Tracy (Olivia Wilde), known as much for her domineering personality as for her highly sexualized (and deliberately provocative) work. At first, he is just one of a small army of fellow assistants tasked with helping prepare for an exhibition of new work at her gallery, which ranges from writing emails and scheduling interviews to chewing gum for a conceptual artwork depicting her vagina; but something about him catches her eye, and he soon finds himself taking on the additional duty of being her sexual plaything.
Itās strictly a business arrangement, of course, and all under cover of an NDA he signed before ever being hired; she needs the sexual outlet to keep her focused on her work, and he ā thanks to his unsatisfying relationship with disinterested girlfriend Minerva (Charlie XCX) and his desire to finally pay his share of rent for the apartment he shares with BFF Apple (Chase Sui Wonders) ā is happy to be of service. At first, it all feels like a dream come true, as he crosses his own boundaries to become enmeshed in a Dom/sub dynamic with an older woman on whom heās long had a crush; sheās the Dom, of course, and he soon discovers he has more than just a mild taste for being submissive. But as things progress, he begins to ācatchā the feelings he was never allowed to have, while Erikaās manipulation and humiliation of him starts to cross lines that threaten to undermine his tenuous sexual liberation, simultaneously eroding the comfortable relationships that have kept him feeling grounded, if perennially dIsappointed, up until now. Needless to say, things get progressively twisted, and Elliott finds himself ever more haplessly exploited as the story winds back to that āswimming pool momentā with all the inevitability of a train wreck experienced in irresistibly delicious slow motion.
Yes, itās all deliberately āshockingā in the sense that it takes us places ā both sexually and psychosexually ā that a lot of audiences might never have thought theyād be expected to go. Thereās plenty of nudity, the kinky sex is āexplicitā in the sense that we have no doubt about the physical logistics of whatās happening even if we donāt see it, and the overall sense of āethicsā is pretty much āwho cares?ā In todayās world of āpurity politics,ā that might actually be the most transgressive thing of all about Arakiās film.
Itās not all just thumb to the nose at 21st century morality, however; nor is it merely a chance to undermine our faith in concepts like āconsentā or suggest that inappropriate sexual dynamics in the workplace are anything other than toxic. Erika is most definitely a kind of beautiful monster ā all the more because her angle, from the beginning, is all about increasing the value of her ābrandā ā but to frame her as a villain is missing a crucial point in what is essentially, despite its coy pretense at being a thriller, a coming-of-age story wrapped in a dark and de-romanticized rom-com.
Central to Arakiās story is the oft-cited observation that Gen Z people, having come of age in a time of social isolation in which private indiscretion can frequently lead to public shame, are afraid of sex. Elliot himself discusses this generational trope, yet he exposes himself to betrayal and humiliation anyway ā and while that choice may take him down a rocky road, it also takes him on the journey of sexual self-discovery that heās always wanted to have. Erika facilitates this, however unethically she may go about it, and even makes some discoveries about herself along the way; and despite the fact the journey ends up with police interrogations, tabloid scandal, and reversals of fortune not even she can see coming, the sex itself is never really to blame. After all, itās only sex.
Maybe thatās the main point of āI Want Your Sex,ā if there is one: all the stigma, all the prudish judgments and standards of moral ādecencyā become absurd in the face of the act itself, which ā for most humans, at least ā only comes naturally and, when stripped of unnecessary shame, can be a joyful experience, no matter how ākinkyā it gets.
In fact, itās not so much the sexual ādevianceā or betrayals that Araki positions as the driving force in his movie, but the pretensions of a commercialized art world in which notoriety, controversy, and even tragedy can boost fame and fortune overnight ā something that savvy artists, like Erika (and perhaps Araki himself) understand and exploit without qualm. One can make judgments about that, too, but in the end, isnāt that just part of how capitalism works?
In any case, āI Want Your Sexā doesnāt make judgments about any of it, just observations ā with wit, slyness, and a refreshingly sex-positive attitude. Wilde and Hoffman deliver superb performances, as does the entire cast ā which, apart from others previously mentioned, includes Mason Gooding as Elliotās super-gay co-worker, Daveed Diggs as Erikaās haughty business manager, and Margaret Cho and Johnny Knoxville in admirably deadpan roles as a pair of police detectives. Shrewd, sexy, and all in good fun, it might well be the most fun youāll have at the movies this summer.
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āHeartstopper Foreverā delivers satisfying conclusion
Beloved queer phenomenon shows us hope can belong to everyone
When I wrote my review of the first season of āHeartstopper,ā I said that if the series could only be summed up in one word, it would be āadorable.ā
After an additional two seasons and a movie length series finale (which began streaming on Netflix July 17), Iām going to make up a new rule and say that I can choose a second word to close things out. By the time I reach the end of my review of āHeartstopper Forever,ā in which our adorable Nick and Charlie must face the possibility that their tender young romance may not be able to survive their graduation to college, I hope Iāll have figured which word it would be.
Directed by Wash Westmoreland and written (as always) by Alice Oseman, artist and creator behind the YA webcomic/graphic novel that launched the whole āHeartstopperā phenomenon, this final installment finds a very different Nick and Charlie than we met in those early episodes ā yet in many ways theyāre still very much the same. Far from the timid and bullied queer lad of the first season, Charlie (Joe Locke) is now boldly out and confident enough to win the election for āhead boyā in his final year at school, and Nick (Kit Connor) no longer struggles with being open about his bisexuality; yet as the stress of their impending separation ā each to a different college in a different city ā begins to become more urgent, both of them fall back on old patterns.
To those of us who have been around long enough to re-examine such a crisis with 20/20 hindsight, thatās bound to strike chords of recognition. To the younger āHeartstopperā fans, however, itās likely to feel like high drama ā exactly as it did for us when we were going through it ourselves. Itās not just Nick and Charlie, either; other characters, like transgender prodigy Elle (Yasmin Finney) and her cis-het boyfriend Tao (William Gao), must also come to terms with the changing dynamics of their relationships. The result is multiple mirrors through which queer teens can see their own experience reflected, which has always been the appeal of āHeartstopperā in the first place. And as it has from the beginning, Osemanās intent to provide her teen audience with positive perspectives shines through, ensuring that the storyās final chapter lands in a place where hope can belong to everyone.
That doesnāt mean it doesnāt have its share of dark moments ā it wouldnāt be āHeartstopperā if it didnāt, would it? Part of the showās value for its fans, young and old alike, has always come through its various charactersā growing pains; their missteps and misjudgments, their confused emotions, their fumbling efforts at āfirst times,ā their struggles toward self-esteem. All these and more have provided the necessary āweightā to counter the showās bubbly optimism and keep it from becoming as insubstantial as spun sugar. More importantly, these issues have always been the real core of the story: We love the sweetness of the romance, but the deeper satisfaction comes from watching these young people navigate all their challenges, sometimes alone but more often together, and build a community through the shared experience of working through them.
The final installment, having brought Charlie, Nick, and all the rest to the cusp of young adulthood, brings a suitably more mature level of problems into the mix. Sure, Charlie has grown into the hero he once needed himself, but the uncertainty that emerges between himself and Nick as they ponder their impending separation is enough to spark a relapse of his eating disorder; likewise, Nick may be confident and unguarded about his sexuality and openly proud of being Charlieās boyfriend, but that doesnāt stop him from slipping back into self-doubt (and bad behavior) when he contemplates the possibility that their love story might be coming to an end. We know they have the ātoolsā to get back on track, but with everything so up in the air, will they be able to remember how to use them?
So, too, throughout the series, we have seen these kids come to terms with their individual queerness, navigating those personal journeys and learning how to embrace who they are in an environment where, for the most part, they get a lot of support. At the same time, there have been shadows around the edges, encounters and circumstances that remind them (and us) that, outside the protective circle provided by their school and each other, bigotry still exists. In āHeartstopper Forever,ā those reminders are still there, and they feel all the more ominous ā not just because of the worldwide rise in anti-LGBTQ+ sentiment, though thatās tied to it, but because these bright young things will soon be moving into a larger world where safety and shelter from the hate is not quite so certain.
Still, itās Nick and Charlieās story above all else, and naturally the main focus of this finale is on them. There has always been a too-good-to-be-true perfection to their romance, but Locke and Connor are so good at bringing it to life we believe it; here, fittingly for a final chapter, these boys finally face the crossroad that comes with adulthood ā the recognition that, one way or another, there will be an ending to their relationship. How they handle that, we wonāt spoil; once again, though, this is āHeartstopper,ā one can feel sure that Osemanās characters will work their way through it in the most imperfectly perfect ā and emotionally satisfying ā way possible.
Deserving of mention: characters like Isaac (Tobie Donovan), Imogen (Rhea Norwood), and Charlieās sister Tori (Jenny Walser) return to get their fair share of the spotlight, and gay teachers Mr. Ajayi (Fisayo Akinade) and Mr. Farouk (Nima Taleghani) get the chance for a new beginning of their own; and out UK acting legend Derek Jacobi (āI, Claudiusā) appears alongside real-life partner Richard Clifford as an elderly couple in a quiet but important scene at the cafe where Charlie works.
With any āfranchiseā as popular as āHeartstopper,ā the task of bringing closure to a story that has emotionally involved so many fans is almost always a thankless one (just ask George Lucas), so there are sure to be some who have objections to the way Oseman brings her beloved story to an end; but itās her story to end, and in choosing to uphold its sensational (yet sentimental) imagining of the world as it could be, āHeartstopper Foreverā doubles down on the idea that we can make it the way that it should be.
Thatās why my choice for the second word we can use to sum up āHeartstopperā is āaspirational.ā In the relative innocence and un-ironic preciousness of Nick and Charlieās enduring love story, we can find no excuses; not all of us can keep our first love alive for an entire lifetime (nor, often, should we), but maybe we can learn to follow our hearts as surely and openly as they do.
Thatās about as aspirational as any of us can hope to be ā but donāt worry: itās still adorable, too.
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