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Sacrificing self
New documentary profiles gay Naval Academy alumniĀ
‘Out of Annapolis’
Oct. 22 at 9:30 p.m.
U.S. Naval Memorial Theatre
701 Pennsylvania Ave., N.W.
$15

Director Steve Clark Hall during his service days in 1982 off the coast of Connecticut. (Photo courtesy of the filmmaker)
Baltimore resident Frank McNeil remembers with a chuckle some of the tricks of the trade he and his Marine Corps buddies ā the few who were out to each other ā used to keep handy during their years at North Carolina’s Marine Corps Base Camp Lejeune where he was stationed in the ’80s.
There was a gay bar in nearby Jacksonville, N.C., ironically dubbed Secrets. But partying there was too dangerous because military police would routinely troll the Secrets parking lot for cars with military stickers, trace the owners and confront them.
McNeil wormed his way out of getting busted a few times ā enough to learn Secrets was too close to home to patronize.
“‘So, Corp. McNeil, why was your car parked at a gay bar?'” McNeil remembers the conversation unfolding. “‘Uhhh, I loaned it to a friend.’ You just learned not to go out in Jacksonville, most of us went out in Wilmington, which was like an hour away. So you could go out and have fun but your guard was up, or at least mine was.”
McNeil left the military in 1991, before “Don’t’ Ask, Don’t Tell” was enacted. His story and 10 others are told in the new film “Out of Annapolis,” a documentary that will be screened as half of a double bill at the U.S. Naval Memorial Theatre in Washington Oct. 22. It’s one of three films being screened this month as a mini Reel Affirmations festival as the LGBT film marathon has moved its usual lineup from October to April.
Director Steve Clark Hall, a San Francisco Navy vet whose own story is shared in the film, says he was inspired to make the documentary because he was tired of seeing gays misrepresented.
“I’m just trying to put a real face on who we are,” Hall says. “Everything we see so misrepresents us, so we started with a website three-and-a-half years ago. Who are these people? You know, gays are always assumed to be these other people. Not people we know. Not who we are, but then all of a sudden it’s like, ‘Oh, gays are my good friends or my neighbors.'”
Hall, who spent 20 years in the Navy, says he was “about as out as one could be without having gay tattooed on my forehead. I didn’t raise my hand and say, ‘I’m gay, kick me out.’ I think it wasn’t much of a problem for me because I was always a team player. Always an asset.”
McNeil had an especially rough time keeping his personal and professional life in balance. In those pre-“Don’t Ask” years, he only confided in a “very select” group of friends about his sexual orientation. His late partner, Chris Duncan, was battling AIDS, a factor in McNeil’s eventual resignation.
“It brought a lot of mixed feelings because I really loved what I was doing, but you just couldn’t share completely,” he says. “You couldn’t have your partner’s picture out. You had to change your pronouns. ⦠There was a sense of dismay that you couldn’t quite be honest with the people you were serving.”
“Out of Annapolis” started in the summer of 2008 as an undertaking of the United States Naval Academy OUT ā a group of LGBT U.S. Naval Academy alumni and their supporters. Hall, a novice filmmaker, says the project, which included a study of the experiences of gay alumni, aims to educate the public about the experiences of gay service members before and during “Don’t Ask, Don’t Tell.” Participants were selected to give a good cross-representation of experiences. About 300 participated in the study, 75 were interviewed and 11 were chosen for the film.
“It was tough to pare it down,” Hall says. “We had some great stories we had to turn away because it would have over-represented a certain group.”
The movie debuted in New York in June and has been making the rounds of LGBT film festivals since. Hall and five others, including McNeil, will be at the D.C. screening, its local premiere.
“It’s very powerful,” says Larry Guillemette, Reel Affirmations festival chair. “I think it will resonate a great deal given the defeat our community just experienced on the ‘Don’t Ask, Don’t Tell’ legislation. I think it will hopefully galvanize people to get more involved.”
Perhaps ironically, Hall didn’t conceive the project as an anti-“Don’t Ask” manifesto. The policy is hardly mentioned in the film.
“Some of it is just chronology,” he says. “Some of the people we profiled served before the policy began. But the film interestingly doesn’t sit there and try to make an argument, but in some ways just hearing the stories makes it the greatest argument against ‘Don’t Ask, Don’t Tell’ because people can see what it was really like trying to live under the law. We were forced to be two different people and you just can’t be.”
PHOTO: Frank McNeil at his home in Baltimore (Blade photo by Michael Key)
Movies
Controversial āBlue Filmā pushes past taboos for gripping drama
Two-character psychosexual drama explores Dom-sub encounter
When movies are labeled as ācontroversial,ā the effect is often akin to Oscar Wildeās quip that āthereās only one thing in life worse than being talked about, and that is not being talked about.ā
Indeed, a whiff of controversy can be the best publicity of all, turning a movie that might otherwise have been no more than a blip on the cultural radar into the buzziest āhidden gemā of the season ā and āBlue Film,ā a two-character psychosexual drama about an encounter between a male sex worker and a much-older client, is a perfect example. The debut feature of filmmaker Elliot Tuttle, it was rejected for inclusion at last yearās Sundance and SXSW festivals before finally premiering at the Edinborough International film fest; and even then, some audience members were walking out of the theater in disgust.
Itās easy to see why, really. The taboos it breaks run far deeper than just frank depiction of queer sexuality to rattle some among the ones most hard-coded into our cultural DNA, and the directness with which it pushes past our comfort zones is merciless. It begins with Aaron Eagle (Kieron Moore), a Los Angeles āfetish cam-boyā who specializes in financial humiliation and domination, proudly performing for his online fans by fondling his stacked physique on camera while deriding them with homophobic slurs and other forms of verbal abuse. He also taunts them by bragging that one of them is paying $50,000 to be abused in person overnight.
When he shows up for the gig, heās greeted by an older man in a ski mask (Reed Birney), who wants to begin their session by asking him questions on camera about his personal life. Aaron agrees, but makes up the answers, only to have the client call out his lies; the mask soon comes off, revealing that the man behind it is Hank Johnson, a teacher who had been fired from Aaronās home town middle school after attempting to molest a student in the boysā restroom, and who confesses that he has spent his life savings to set up this meeting because he was once āin loveā with Aaron from afar. Claiming he doesnāt want a sexual experience, but simply the chance to āget to knowā each other and achieve a kind of closure in his old age, he convinces a wary-but-intrigued Aaron to stay, setting the scene for a night of charged conversation, true confessions, and secretive soul-baring, which leads them to discover unexpected common ground.
Itās clear from even the barest description that Tuttleās movie is not designed for all audiences. Even within the ānicheā of queer cinema, these are āproblematicā characters: sex workers, despite years of growing acceptance and decriminalization, are still largely stigmatized by the culture at large; and as for convicted pedophiles, youāre more likely to find tolerance for them in the halls of government than on a big screen. Yet in āBlue Film,ā these are the characters we get, and as a result, itās a movie in which almost everything that is said or done has a layer ā and often, several layers ā thatās likely to be objectionable to someone in the audience.
Thatās not by mistake. In his directorās statement, Tuttle calls his film an āessay on perversion,ā born from āthe accumulation of a lifetime of private thoughts regarding sex, fetish, and relationships,ā and fueled by his frustration with what he calls the āconceptualizationā of sex on the screen. His purpose in presenting a two-person āecho chamberā is an exploration of how these sexually stigmatized individuals find a āreckoning with the ways in which they can and cannot connect with those around them,ā in which his explicit intention is to make sex on the screen āfeel uncomfortable, scary, and laced with significance.ā Itās safe to say that he succeeded.
Of course, it would be easy enough to stave off the discomfort āBlue Filmā creates for us to sit in by dismissing the whole thing as deliberately sensational, if not for the fact that itās so well done. Tuttle directs it like a thriller ā a fitting approach, considering the uneasy dynamic between its characters, each of whom might easily be operating with malicious intent, and the generally āsketchyā circumstances of their arranged meeting ā and he uses the resulting tension as a subliminal undercurrent that keeps us feeling unsettled. When things do begin to get sexy (because of course they do, Hankās protestations of wholesome intent notwithstanding), he plays into the anticipated uneasiness of sexually squeamish viewers by layering in some particularly ominous strains from Isaac Eigerās moody electronic score; it feels like weāre about to see something horrible, when in fact we donāt even get any full-frontal nudity.
In fact, itās in these sexual moments ā which, though explicit enough to get the point across, never feel pornographic ā that āBlue Filmā may deliver its most directly transgressive imagery. Though both men are adults, participating in consensual acts, what we are watching is probably the ultimate sexual taboo of all, not because of what we see but because we know the fantasy being played out in their minds. Itās unsettling, perhaps even for the most open-minded fetishists out there, yet in the unvarnished honesty with which the movie strives to deliver its uncomfortable truths, it somehow plays as something almost sweet.
As always in a film that presents characters who push the limits of our ethical and moral boundaries, the actors carry the weight of responsibility for transcending (or at least tempering) our judgment of them; in this case, the two star players face a monumental task, and they rise to it with unflinching commitment. Birney, a Tony-winning actor who also served as an executive producer on the film, has the more challenging burden, but he defies the odds by bestowing Hank with both the grace of a man who has learned how to endure shame and the cageyness that comes from a life of keeping it hidden. Moore, an up-and-coming British actor (recently seen in the gays-in-the-military series, āBootsā), leans into the aggressive toxicity of his fetish āDomā persona with a ferocity that makes the āsubā vulnerability he slowly makes visible feel even more delicate; indeed, they both navigate the spectrum of that dynamic in a way that emphasizes its subtle fluidity, and āBlue Filmā could not work without their contributions.
But work it does, for those who are able to get past their many layers of discomfort over its subject matter; it will speak most directly to those who have already come to embrace their own alternative sexualities, who understand that sex work can be empowering, who recognize that forbidden desires are not a choice and can find empathy for those who must live with them. Still, a movie that acknowledges (among other things) the validity of rape fantasies, the ancient cultural traditions of pederasty, and the transcendence of self-loathing through fetish is a movie that has appeal for only a particular kind of viewer; and with āBlue Filmā coming to VOD platforms June 12, you’re the only one who can decide if youāre one of them.
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āThe Strangerā queers an existentialist classic
āGay male gazeā anchors filmās visual aesthetic
When Albert Camus published āLāetrangerā (āThe Strangerā) in 1942, he was living in Nazi-occupied France, so itās no surprise that it became one of the most celebrated āexistentialā novels of all time. A fascist regime is great for inspiring thoughts of an indifferent and meaningless universe.
It wasnāt his first experience with authoritarianism. Born to a working-class white European family in then-French Algeria, he grew up observing the harsh treatment of the native North Africans by the colonists who governed them. It was this personal history, amplified by the spread of European fascism, that found its voice in āThe Stranger.ā Short, terse, and shrouded in a cloak of ennui, it was his first novel ā novella, really ā but its impact was seismic.
Naturally, its influence has run through the world of cinema, and, it has been translated to the screen three times ā most recently by French filmmaker FranƧois Ozon, whose screen version won acclaim at last yearās Venice Film Festival, and is now available for on-demand streaming in the U.S.
Ozonās vision is captured in gleaming black-and-white, blending the luster of modern-day faux-vintage fashion photography with the nostalgic flavor of classic era āarthouseā and European cinema, and it maintains a largely faithful connection to Camusās novel, at least in terms of plot. It’s the story of Meursault (Benjamin Voisin), a French settler living in the capital city of Algiers, who receives word that his mother has died. He takes time off from work, traveling to the nursing home ā where he had sent her three years before ā in order to attend her funeral, but remains seemingly emotionless throughout, prompting members of the staff and other residents to mark his apparent lack of customary grief.
When he returns to Algiers, he encounters Marie (Rebecca Marder), a former co-worker, and after spending the day together, the two become romantically involved. Their relationship continues over the next few weeks, while they also associate with Meursaultās neighbor Raymond (Pierre Lottin) ā a suspected pimp who, after beating his Arab mistress, is being followed and harassed by her brother (Abderrahmane Dehkani) and his friends. After a skirmish with the Arabs, Meursault encounters the brother alone during a walk on the beach, and shoots the young man dead with a pistol given to him for protection by Raymond. On trial for murder, he offers no defense and expresses no remorse. He is convicted and sentenced to death, facing it all with emotional detachment, and seeming to find liberation in the recognition that none of it matters, anyway.
Though itās a tale that includes romance, murder, and courtroom drama, it feels like a story in which nothing really happens ā which is, of course, the perfect effect to emphasize the point of Camusās philosophical viewpoint; but while that might satisfy the kind of viewers drawn to a film of a Camus novel, Ozonās movie probably wonāt hold much appeal for audiences seeking action, suspense, feel-good sentiment, or easy answers to the moral dilemmas that come hand-in-hand with being alive. Camus was interested in the opposite effect, a confrontation with existence which leaves no room for comfortable denials, and Ozonās inflection on the originalās themes makes no effort to soften the blow.Ā
What it does, however, is introduce ā without having to adjust the narrative provided by Camus ā an element of queerness that lends the whole story a new layer of subtext through what can only be described as the āgay male gazeā that anchors the filmās visual aesthetic.
Itās in the way the camera ā aimed by Ozon and cinematographer Manu Dacosse ā remains fixated on its star, the exquisitely beautiful Voisin, lingering on his face, his frame, or his body in swim trunks. Thereās a sensuality in the way the director shows us female beauty, too, but itās never framed as the āobjectā of desire; and in the narrativeās key scene ā the killing by the sea ā thereās an inescapable element of repressed homoeroticism, born perhaps by associations with the mid-20th-century queer aesthetic of writers like Jean Genet or artists like George Quaintance, or pretentiously artsy commercials for high-end menās cologne, or just from real-life memories of cruising on the beach. On the surface, Meursault gives no sign of queerness; but the emphasis that Ozon brings to the story ā almost purely through visual suggestion ā lends the character, already an outsider to the world of ānormalā human experience in the first place, an even deeper sense of āotherness.ā
As to that, Voisinās performance is effective for reasons beyond his model-esque physical perfection; thereās a vast inner life happening under that pretty face, and the actor conveys it with a āless-is-moreā approach that aligns perfectly with the characterās dissociation from conventional humanity. Heās compelling enough to engage us, and intelligent enough in his expression of Camusā ideas to help us grasp them even as he makes us feel them ā and frankly, thatās saying a lot.
The rest of the cast is effective, as well, though most of them serve primarily as a foil to reflect Voisin and his character. Marder brings a relatably savvy-yet-romantic presence as Marie, and Lottin gives Raymond a kind of louche charisma that evokes a brand of appealing-but-toxic masculinity. Swann Arlaud also stands out as the prison priest who attempts to convert Meursault on the eve of his execution, bearing the full brunt of Camusā existentialist arguments in a scene that somehow taps into transgressive homoerotic fantasies even as its characters discuss impending death.
Camus, for his part, did not see himself as an existentialist; instead, he embraced and promoted a viewpoint in which human life is defined by its relationship with what he called āThe Absurdā ā the gap between reality and our assumed expectations about it, where our circumstances and behavior become obviously ridiculous ā and believed that, in a meaningless universe, we are free to find our own meaning. An essay he published around the same time (āThe Myth of Sisyphusā) posited that finding happiness in the struggle was perhaps the most logical response to facing an unfeeling world, and the Absurdist movement he helped to define used humor ā albeit often the dark and sardonic variety ā as a means to expose the madness of trying to impose sense on a nonsensical world. In the end, his writings reveal him as a deeply humanistic thinker, whose acceptance of objective reality served only to deepen his dedication to the ideal of a better mankind.
Whether or not any of that comes across in Ozonās artful film, which emphasizes the immediacy of experience ā the beach, the sea, the sun, the visceral responses we get from sex or violence ā over the intellectual arguments that Camus would elucidate throughout his life, probably depends on oneās own grasp of Existentialist thinking and its offshoots. In any case, while Ozonās āThe Strangerā might fall short in the challenge to convey its philosophical arguments, it more than succeeds as a stylish piece of international art cinema, and it just might ā hopefully ā inspire audiences to go on a deeper dive into the mind of Albert Camus.
And even if it doesnāt, itās still pretty to look at.
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Quest for fame becomes an obsession in entertaining āLurkerā
Psychological thriller explores the dynamics of power and control
It was nearly 60 years ago when über-queer icon Andy Warhol pronounced to the world his prediction that āin the future, everyone will be famous for 15 minutes.ā While it may have been an overstatement, weāre now experiencing the future he was talking about; and though it remains statistically impossible for āeverybodyā to achieve fame, that doesnāt mean that we canāt all āfeelā like weāre famous. If social media has delivered any gift to the human race, that might just be it.
In the real-life dystopia that is 2026, Warholās 1967 quip has become a kind of cultural mantra: influencers are more famous than movie stars, podcasters can shape political policy, and anybody with a āhot takeā can change the way we perceive even the most fundamentally held opinions. Whether or not this is progress is probably a moot point; itās the reality we live in, and we have a government full of ācosplayingā charlatans to prove it.
Thatās why Alex Russellās āLurkerā ā a 2025 Sundance favorite thatās now streaming on HBO Max after a limited theatrical run last summer ā cuts so close to the quick. A psychological thriller exploring the dynamics of power and control within the entourage of a rock star, it strikes some uncomfortably familiar chords for an era when ābootlickingā seems to have become a national pastime.
It centers on Matthew (ThĆ©odore Pellerin), a young Angeleno who lives in his grandmotherās apartment and works in a trendy designer boutique on Melrose Avenue. When rising pop musician Oliver (Archie Madekwe) brings his entourage to the store one afternoon, Matthew sees a chance to make an impression; plugging his phone into the shopās sound system, he plays a song that he knows the pop star admires ā and minutes later, heās been given a backstage pass to Oliverās next concert and invited to hang out with the star himself.
Their relationship continues to develop quickly at the show. Though heās met at first with some discomfortable hazing from members of the entourage, by the end of the evening heās on his way to becoming part of the inner circle. Chosen by Oliver to become his āofficial documentarian,ā heās soon a fixture in the entourage himself, sparking jealousy from members higher in the āpecking orderā than he is; but Matthew is better at the game than they suspect, and despite their attempts to keep him in his place, he uses his proximity to Oliver ā and a few surgically precise acts of sabotage ā to rise quickly to the top.
Staying there, however, is not so easy. Within the volatile social politics of the entourage, he must always be on guard, and his efforts to thwart others from displacing him become increasingly ruthless. Eventually, he crosses a line, resulting in a fall from Oliverās grace and his ejection from the group; but being close to fame leads to its own kind of fame, and Matthew has worked too hard to give it up so easily ā even if it means using his Machiavellian powers to go after Oliver himself.
Slick, stylish, and as hypervisual as any viral pop music video you can imagine, Russellās sardonically amoral exploration of fame ā or rather, the desire for it ā is as much a satire as it is a psychological drama, but it plays like a horror movie. Matthew is a protagonist cut from the same cloth as the title character of āThe Talented Mr. Ripley,ā a schemer whose endearingly awkward appearance masks a devious purpose and a diabolical mind. Oliver, whose creativity seems more about his āvibeā than his actual music, is charismatic but aloof, beneficent but mercurial, and seemingly blind to the massive ego that hides beneath his āchillā persona. Thereās a kind of tension between these two characters that feels distinctly romantic, even homoerotic, and though itās expressed only through subtext, it provides a palpable edge that makes their relationship feel dangerous ā as if this were a love story in which anyone who tries to come between them is likely to get hurt.
As to what they actually feel about each other, āLurkerā keeps quiet about it. Matthew āreadsā like a queer character, but his inner life is never revealed to us save through the conclusions we can draw from his behavior, and Oliver seems so much in love with himself that nobody else can compare; even so, thereās something between them that plays as much more intimate than the enthusiastic ābroā-ish affection that they exhibit together.
In the end, however, the ālove storyā here is not about romance, nor even sex; itās about fame. Matthew, even if his own creative talents may be more solid than Oliverās, is enamored primarily with fame; perhaps he longs for importance, for a life of more excitement and opportunity than his thankless existence as a low-level retail employee, and as the movie proceeds it becomes clear that he is willing to go as far as he has to go in order to achieve it. For Oliver, maybe itās about the longing of the famous for something more than sycophantic lip-service, for finding the adulation of his fans personified in an authentic, tangible, and individual form. Whatever it is, thereās very little love involved.
Of course, thereās an unavoidable comparison to be made between the mentality on display in āLurkerā with the prevailing trend in our American consciousness, in which performative loyalty and opportunistic friendship feel like the order of the day; from the fickleness of āfan cultureā to the escalation of outrage-baiting on social media to the barely-concealed cutthroat narcissism on daily display in our very government, the message that comes through loud and clear is a chilling throwback to the Reagan-era āgreed is goodā philosophy: loyalty, feelings, and friendship are for suckers, and the most vicious player is the winner who takes it all.
As usual in a character-driven piece like this one, itās ultimately the actors who make it work; Pellerin (a Canadian actor who won his countryās equivalent of an Oscar for āFamily Firstā in 2018) is the lynch pin, and he delivers such an endlessly fascinating portrait of obsessively determined duplicity that we find ourselves rooting for him even as we recoil from the coldness of his tactics; Madekwe (“Saltburn”) captures the vapid pretension of a pop artist who has faked his way to success, but infuses Oliver with enough well-meaning sincerity that we can still feel a little bit sorry for him. In a smaller role, Hannah Rose Liu (āBottomsā) makes an impression as the manager who keeps Oliverās life running, offering an anchor of relative sanity in a sea of madness.Ā
Russellās taut and tantalizingly opaque screenplay manages to capture all these things and more into a compact narrative that keeps us engaged while weaving its observations seamlessly into the plot, and his direction ā which somehow yields an expansive scope through an intimate and sometimes frenetic focus ā reinforces the unpredictable instability of fame, status, power, and the social hierarchy that governs them all. There are occasionally twists that feel a bit too convenient to be believable, but all in all, itās a solid piece of cinematic workmanship.
