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Sacrificing self
New documentary profiles gay Naval Academy alumniĀ
‘Out of Annapolis’
Oct. 22 at 9:30 p.m.
U.S. Naval Memorial Theatre
701 Pennsylvania Ave., N.W.
$15

Director Steve Clark Hall during his service days in 1982 off the coast of Connecticut. (Photo courtesy of the filmmaker)
Baltimore resident Frank McNeil remembers with a chuckle some of the tricks of the trade he and his Marine Corps buddies ā the few who were out to each other ā used to keep handy during their years at North Carolina’s Marine Corps Base Camp Lejeune where he was stationed in the ’80s.
There was a gay bar in nearby Jacksonville, N.C., ironically dubbed Secrets. But partying there was too dangerous because military police would routinely troll the Secrets parking lot for cars with military stickers, trace the owners and confront them.
McNeil wormed his way out of getting busted a few times ā enough to learn Secrets was too close to home to patronize.
“‘So, Corp. McNeil, why was your car parked at a gay bar?'” McNeil remembers the conversation unfolding. “‘Uhhh, I loaned it to a friend.’ You just learned not to go out in Jacksonville, most of us went out in Wilmington, which was like an hour away. So you could go out and have fun but your guard was up, or at least mine was.”
McNeil left the military in 1991, before “Don’t’ Ask, Don’t Tell” was enacted. His story and 10 others are told in the new film “Out of Annapolis,” a documentary that will be screened as half of a double bill at the U.S. Naval Memorial Theatre in Washington Oct. 22. It’s one of three films being screened this month as a mini Reel Affirmations festival as the LGBT film marathon has moved its usual lineup from October to April.
Director Steve Clark Hall, a San Francisco Navy vet whose own story is shared in the film, says he was inspired to make the documentary because he was tired of seeing gays misrepresented.
“I’m just trying to put a real face on who we are,” Hall says. “Everything we see so misrepresents us, so we started with a website three-and-a-half years ago. Who are these people? You know, gays are always assumed to be these other people. Not people we know. Not who we are, but then all of a sudden it’s like, ‘Oh, gays are my good friends or my neighbors.'”
Hall, who spent 20 years in the Navy, says he was “about as out as one could be without having gay tattooed on my forehead. I didn’t raise my hand and say, ‘I’m gay, kick me out.’ I think it wasn’t much of a problem for me because I was always a team player. Always an asset.”
McNeil had an especially rough time keeping his personal and professional life in balance. In those pre-“Don’t Ask” years, he only confided in a “very select” group of friends about his sexual orientation. His late partner, Chris Duncan, was battling AIDS, a factor in McNeil’s eventual resignation.
“It brought a lot of mixed feelings because I really loved what I was doing, but you just couldn’t share completely,” he says. “You couldn’t have your partner’s picture out. You had to change your pronouns. ⦠There was a sense of dismay that you couldn’t quite be honest with the people you were serving.”
“Out of Annapolis” started in the summer of 2008 as an undertaking of the United States Naval Academy OUT ā a group of LGBT U.S. Naval Academy alumni and their supporters. Hall, a novice filmmaker, says the project, which included a study of the experiences of gay alumni, aims to educate the public about the experiences of gay service members before and during “Don’t Ask, Don’t Tell.” Participants were selected to give a good cross-representation of experiences. About 300 participated in the study, 75 were interviewed and 11 were chosen for the film.
“It was tough to pare it down,” Hall says. “We had some great stories we had to turn away because it would have over-represented a certain group.”
The movie debuted in New York in June and has been making the rounds of LGBT film festivals since. Hall and five others, including McNeil, will be at the D.C. screening, its local premiere.
“It’s very powerful,” says Larry Guillemette, Reel Affirmations festival chair. “I think it will resonate a great deal given the defeat our community just experienced on the ‘Don’t Ask, Don’t Tell’ legislation. I think it will hopefully galvanize people to get more involved.”
Perhaps ironically, Hall didn’t conceive the project as an anti-“Don’t Ask” manifesto. The policy is hardly mentioned in the film.
“Some of it is just chronology,” he says. “Some of the people we profiled served before the policy began. But the film interestingly doesn’t sit there and try to make an argument, but in some ways just hearing the stories makes it the greatest argument against ‘Don’t Ask, Don’t Tell’ because people can see what it was really like trying to live under the law. We were forced to be two different people and you just can’t be.”
PHOTO: Frank McNeil at his home in Baltimore (Blade photo by Michael Key)
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A Sondheim masterpiece āMerrilyā rolls onto Netflix
Embracing raw truth lurking just under the clever lyrics
Itās been long lamented by fans of the late Stephen Sondheim ā and they are legion ā that Hollywood has hardly ever been successful in transposing his musicals onto the big screen.
Sure, his first Broadway show ā āWest Side Story,ā on which he collaborated with the then-superstar composer Leonard Bernstein ā was made into an Oscar-winning triumph in 1961, but after that, despite repeated attempts, even the most starry-eyed Sondheim aficionados would admit that the mainstream movie industry has mostly offered only watered-down versions of his works that were too popular to ignore: āA Little Night Musicā was muddled into an ill-fitted star vehicle for Liz Taylor, āSweeney Toddā became a middling entry in the Tim Burton/Johnny Depp canon, āInto the Woodsā mutated into a too-literal all-star fantasy with most of its wolf-ish teeth removed, and weāre still waiting for a film version of āCompanyā ā not that we would have high hopes for it anyway, given the track record.
Of course, most of those aficionados would also be able to tell you exactly why this has always been the case: erudite, sophisticated, and driven by an experimental boldness that would come to redefine American musical theater, Sondheimās musicals were never about escapism; rather, they deconstructed the romanticized tropes and presentational glamour, turning them upside down to explore a more intellectual realm which favored psychological nuance and moral ambiguity over feel-good fantasy. Instead of pretty lovers and obvious villains, they showcased flawed, complicated, and uncomfortably relatable people who were just as messed-up as the people in the audience. Any attempt to bring them to the screen inevitably depended on changes to make them more appealing to the mainstream, because they were, at heart, the antithesis of what the Hollywood entertainment machine considers to be marketable.
To be fair, this often proved true on the stage as well as the screen. Few of Sondheimās shows, even the most acclaimed ones, were bona fide āhits,ā and at least half of them might be considered āfailuresā from a strictly commercial point of view ā which makes it all the more ironic that perhaps the most purely āSondheimā of the stage-to-screen Sondheim efforts stems from one of his most notorious āflops.ā
āMerrily We Roll Alongā was originally conceived and created more than 40 years ago, a reunion of Sondheim with āCompanyā book-writer George Furth and director Harold Prince, based on a 1934 play by George Kaufman and Moss Hart. Telling the 20-year story of three college friends who grow apart and become estranged as their lives and their goals diverge, it wasnāt ever going to be a feel-good musical; what made it even more of a ādownerā was that it told that story in reverse, beginning with the unhappy ending and then going backward in time, step by step, to the youthful idealism and deep bonds of camaraderie that they shared in their first meeting. On one hand, getting the ābad newsā first keeps the ending from becoming a crushing disappointment; but on the other hand, the irony that results from knowing how things play out becomes more and more painful with each and every scene.
The original production, mounted in 1981, compounded its challenging format with the additional conceit of casting mostly teen and young adult actors in roles that required them to age ā backwards ā across two decades; though the cast included future success stories (Jason Alexander and Giancarlo Esposito, among them), few young actors could be expected to convey the layered maturity required of such a task, and few audiences were capable of suspending their disbelief while watching a teenager play a disillusioned 40-year old. This, coupled with a minimalist presentation that left audiences feeling like they were watching their nephewās high school play, turned āMerrily We Roll Alongā into Sondheimās most notorious Broadway flop ā despite raves reviews for the showās intricately woven score and the stinging candor of its lyrics.
Fast forward to 2022, when renowned UK theater director Maria Friedman staged a new revival of the show in New York. In the interim, āMerrilyā had undergone multiple rewrites and conceptual changes in an effort to āfixā its problems, abandoning the concept of using young performers and opting for a more āfleshed-outā approach to production design, and the showās reputation, fueled by a love for its quintessentially āSondheim-esqueā score, had grown to the level of āunderappreciated masterpiece.ā Inspired by an earlier production she had helmed at home a decade earlier, Friedman mounted an Off-Broadway version of the show starring Jonathan Groff, Daniel Radcliffe, and Lindsay Mendez ā and suddenly, as one critic observed, Sondheimās biggest failure became āthe flop that finally flew.ā The production transferred to Broadway, winning Tony Awards for Groff and Radcliffeās performances, as well as the prize for Best Revival of a Musical, in 2024.
Sondheim, who died at 91 in 2021, participated in the remount, though he did not live to see its premiere, nor the success that officially validated his most āproblematicā work.
Fortunately, we DO get the chance to see it, thanks to a filmed record of the stage performance, directed by Friedman herself, which was released in limited theaters for a brief run last year, but which is now streaming on Netflix ā allowing Sondheim fans to finally experience the show in the way it was designed to be seen: as a live performance.
Embracing the conventions of live theatre into its own cinematic ethos, this record of the show gives viewers the kind of up-close access to its performances that is impossible to experience even from the front-row of the theatre ā and they are impeccable. Groffās raw and deeply deluded Frank Shepard, the ambitious composer who sells out his values and alienates his friends on the road to success and wealth; Radcliffeās mawkishly loyal Charlie Kringas, who remains committed to the dream he shared with his best friend until he just canāt anymore; and Mendezā heartbreaking perfection as Mary Flynn, the wisecracking good-time girl who rounds out their trio while concealing a secret passion of her own ā each of them bring the kind of raw and vulnerable honesty to their roles that can, at last, reveal both the deep insights of Sondheimās intricate lyrics and the discomforting emotional conflicts of Furthās mercilessly brutal script.
Yes, itās true that any filmed record of a live performance loses something in the translation. Thereās a visceral connection to the players and a feeling of real-time experience that doesnāt quite come through; but thanks to unified vision that Friedman shepherded and instilled into her cast ā including each and every one of the brilliant ensemble, who undertake the showās supporting characters and embody āthe blobā of show-biz hangers-on who are central to its cynical theme ā what does come through is more than enough.
Honestly, we canāt think of another Sondheim screen adaptation that comes close to this one for embracing the raw truth that was always lurking just under the clever lyrics and creative rhyme schemes. For that reason alone, itās essential viewing for any Sondheim fan ā because itās probably the closest weāll ever get to having a ārealā Sondheim film that lives up to the genius behind it.
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Trans-driven āSerpentās Skinā delivers campy sapphic horror
Embracing classic tropes with a candid exploration of queer experience
Itās probably no surprise that the last decade or so has seen a ārenaissanceā in horror cinema. Long underestimated and dismissed by critics and ignored by all the awards bodies as “lowbrow” genre films, horror movies were deemed for generations as unworthy of serious consideration; relegated into the realm of fandom, where generations of young movie fanatics were left to find deeper significance on their own, they there inspired countless future film artists whose creative vision would be shaped by their influence. Add to that the increasing state of existential anxiety that has us living like frogs in a slow-boiling pot, and it seems as if the evolution of horror into what might be our cultureās most resonant form of pop art expression was more or less inevitable all along.
Queer audiences, of course, have always understood that horror provides an ideal vehicle to express the ācodedā themes that spring from existence as a stigmatized outsider, and while the rise of the genre as an art form has been fueled by filmmakers from every community, the transgressive influence of queerness ā particularly when armed with ācamp,ā its most surefire means of subversion ā has played an undeniable role in building a world where movies like āSinnersā and āWeaponsā can finally be lauded at the Oscars for their artistic qualities as well as celebrated for their success at providing paying audiences with a healthy jolt of adrenaline.
Perhaps unsurprisingly, many of the boldest and most biting entries are coming from trans filmmakers like Jane Schoenbrun (āI Saw the TV Glowā) ā and like Australian director Alice Maio Mackay, whose new film āThe Serpentās Skinā opened in New York last weekend and expands to Los Angeles this week.
Described in a review from RogerEbert.com as āa kind of āScannersā for the dolls,ā itās a movie that embraces classic horror tropes within a sensibility that blends candid exploration of trans experience with an obvious love for camp. It centers on twenty-something trans girl Anna (Alexandra McVicker), who escapes the toxic environment of both her dysfunctional household and her conservative hometown by running away to the āBig Cityā and moving in with her big sister (Charlotte Chimes). On her first night in town, she connects with Danny (Jordan Dulieu), a neighbor (the only āhottieā in the building, according to her sister) who plays guitar in a band and ticks off all her āedgyā boxes, and they have a one-night stand.
The very next day, she starts a new job at a record store, where she connects ā through the shared experience of an intense and unexpected incident ā with local tattoo artist Gen (Avalon Faust), a young woman she has seen in psychic visions, and who has been likewise drawn to her. The reason? They are both āwitches,ā born with abilities that give them a potentially deadly power over ordinary humans, and bound together in an ancient supernatural legacy.
It goes without saying that they fall in love; together, they teach and learn from each other as they try to master the mysterious magical gifts they both possess; but when Danny coincidentally books Gen for a tattoo inspired by his earlier āflingā with Anna, an ancient evil is unleashed, leading to a string of horrific attacks in their neighborhood ā and forcing them to confront the dark influences within their own traumatic histories which may have conjured this malevolent spirit in the first place.
Confronting the theme of imposed trans āguiltā head on, āSerpentās Skinā emanates from a softer, gentler place than most horror films, focusing less on scares than on the sense of responsibility which seems naturally to arise just from being ādifferent.ā Both McVicker and Faust bring a palpable feeling of weight to their roles, as if their characters are carrying not only their own fate upon their shoulders, but that of the world at large; their performances evoke both the haunted sense of emotional wariness and the heavy sense of responsibility that comes from sharing a layer of awareness that both elevates and isolates them. At the same time, they bring a tender-but-charged eroticism to the sapphic romance at the center of the film, echoing the transgressive and iconic ālesbian noirā genre while replacing the usual amoral cynicism with an imperative toward empathy and social responsibility.
All of this helps to make the filmās heroines relatable, and raises the stakes by investing us not just in the defeat of supernatural evil, but the triumph of love. Yet we canāt help but feel that thereās something lost ā a certain edge, perhaps ā that might have turned up the heat and given the horror a more palpable bite. Though there are moments of genuine fright, most of the āscaryā stuff is campy enough to keep us from taking things too seriously ā despite the best efforts of the charismatic Dulieu, who literally sinks his teeth into his portrayal of the possessed version of Danny.
More genuinely disturbing are the movieās scenes of self-harm, which both underscore and indict the trope of trans āvictimhoodā while reminding us of the very real fear at the center of many trans lives, especially when lived under the oppression of a mindset that deplores their very existence.
Still, though Mackayās film may touch on themes of queer and trans existence and build its premise on a kind of magical bond that makes us all āsisters under the skin,ā it is mostly constructed as a stylish tribute to the classic thrillers of an earlier age, evoking the psychological edge of directors like Hitchcock and DePalma while embracing the lurid āshock valueā of the B-movie horror that shaped the vision of a modern generation of filmmakers who grew up watching it ā and even if it never quite delivers the kind of scares that linger in our minds as we try to go to sleep at night, it makes up for the shortfall with a smart, sensitive, and savvy script and a rare depiction of trans/lesbian love that wins us over with chemistry, emotional intelligence, and enviable solidarity.
What makes āThe Serpentās Skinā feel particularly remarkable is that it comes from a 21-year-old filmmaker. Mackey, who built the foundation of her career behind the camera with a series of low-budget horror shorts in her teens, has already made an impact with movies ranging from the vampire horror comedy āSo Vamā (released when she was 16) to the horror musical āSatanic Panicā and the queer holiday shockfest āCarnage for Christmas.ā With her latest effort, she deploys a confidence and a style that encompasses both the deep psychological nuance and guilty-pleasure thrills of the genre, rendered in an aesthetic that is grounded in intimate queer authenticity ā yet remains daring enough to take detours into the surreal and psychedelic without apology.
Itās the kind of movie that feels like a breakthrough, especially in an era when it feels especially urgent for trans stories to be told.
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The Oscar-losing performance thatās too good to miss
āIf I Had Legs Iād Kick Youā now streaming
Now that Oscar season is officially over, most movie lovers are ready to move on and start looking ahead to the upcoming crop of films for the standouts that might be contenders for the 2026 awards race.
Even so, 2025 was a year with a particularly excellent slate of releases: Ryan Cooglerās āSinnersā and Paul Thomas Andersonās āOne Battle After Another,ā which became rivals for the Best Picture slot as well as for total number of wins for the year, along with acclaimed odds-on favorites like āHamnet,ā with its showcase performance by Best Actress winner Jessie Buckley, and āWeapons,ā with its instantly iconic turn by Best Supporting Actress Amy Madigan.
But while these high-profile titles may have garnered the most attention (and viewership), there were plenty of lesser-seen contenders that, for many audiences, might have slipped under the radar. So while we wait for the arrival of this summerās hopeful blockbusters and the āprestigeā cinema that tends to come in the last quarter of the year, itās worth taking a look back at some of the movies that may have come up short in the quest for Oscar gold, but that nevertheless deserve a place on any film buffās āmust-seeā list; one of the most essential among them is āIf I Had Legs Iād Kick You,ā which earned a Best Actress Oscar nod for Rose Byrne. A festival hit that premiered at Sundance and went on to win international honors ā for both Byrne and filmmaker Jane Bronstein ā from other film festivals and critics’ organizations (including the Dorian Awards, presented by GALECA, the queer critics association), it only received a brief theatrical release in October of last year, so itās one of those Academy Award contenders that most people who werenāt voters on the āFYCā screener list for the Oscars had limited opportunity to see. Now, itās streaming on HBO Max.
Written and directed by Bronstein, itās not the kind of film that will ever be a āpopularā success. Surreal, tense, disorienting, and loaded with trigger-point subject matter that evokes the divisive emotional biases inherent in its premise, itās an unsettling experience at best, and more likely to be an alienating one for any viewer who comes to it unprepared.
Byrne stars as Linda, a psychotherapist who juggles a busy practice with the demands of being mother to a child with severe health issues; her daughter (Delaney Quinn) suffers from a pediatric feeding disorder and must take her nutrition through a tube, requiring constant supervision and ongoing medical therapy ā and sheās not polite about it, either. Seemingly using her condition as an excuse to be coddled, the child is uncooperative with her treatment plan and makes excessive demands on her motherās attention, and the girlās father (Christian Slater) ā who spends weeks away as captain of a cruise ship ā expects Linda to manage the situation on the home front while offering little more than criticism and recriminations over the phone.
Things are made even more stressful when the ceiling collapses in their apartment, requiring mother and child to move to a seedy beachside motel. Understandably overwhelmed, Linda turns increasingly toward escape, mostly through avoidance and alcohol; she finds her own inner conflicts reflected by her clients ā particularly a new mother (Danielle Macdonald) struggling with extreme postpartum anxiety ā and her therapy sessions with a colleague (Conan OāBrien, in a brilliantly effective piece of against-type casting) threaten to cross ethical and professional boundaries. Growing ever more isolated, she eventually finds a thread of potential connection in the motelās sympathetic superintendent (A$AP Rocky) ā but with her own mental state growing ever more muddled and her daughterās health challenges on the verge of becoming a lifelong burden, she finds herself drawn toward an unthinkable solution to her dilemma.
With its cryptic title ā which sounds like the punchline to a macabre joke and evokes expectations of ābody horrorā creepiness ā and its dreamlike, disjointed approach, āIf I Had Legs Iād Kick Youā feels like a dark comedic thriller from the outset, but few viewers are likely to get many laughs from it. Too raw to be campy and too cold to invite our compassion, itās a film that dwells in an uncomfortable zone where we are too mortified to be moved and too appalled to look away. Though itās technically a drama, Bronstein presents it as a horror story, of sorts, driven by psychological rather than supernatural forces, and builds it on an uneasy structure that teases us with the anticipation of grotesqueries to come while forcing us to identify with a character whose lack of (presumably) universal parental instinct feels transgressive in a way that is somehow even more disquieting than the gore and mutilation we imagine might be coming at any moment.
And we do imagine it, even expect it to come, which is as much to do with the near-oppressive claustrophobia that results from Bronsteinās heavy use of close-ups as it does with the hint of impending violence that pervades the psychological tension. Itās not just that our frame of vision is kept tight and limited; her tactic keeps us uncertain of whatās going on outside the edges, creating a sense of something unseen lurking just beyond our view. Yet it also helps to put us into Lindaās state of mind; for almost the entire film, we never see the face of her daughter ā nor do we ever know the childās name ā and her husband is just a strident voice on the other end of a phone call. The effect keeps us feeling as trapped as she does, boxing us squarely into her dissociated, depressed, and desperate existence with nothing but resentment and dread on which to focus.
Anchoring it all, of course, is Byrneās remarkable performance. Vivid, vulnerable, and painfully real, itās the centerpiece of the film, the part that emerges as greater than the whole; and while Oscar may have passed her over, she delivers a star turn for the ages and gives profound voice to a dark side of feminine experience that is rarely allowed to be aired.
That, of course, is the key to Bronsteinās seeming purpose; inspired by her own struggles with postpartum depression, her film feels like both a confession and an exorcism, a parable in which the expectations of unconditional motherly love fall into question, and the burden placed on a woman to subjugate her own existence in service of a child ā and a seemingly ungrateful one, at that ā becomes a powerful exploration of feminist themes. Itās an exploration that might go too far, for some, but it expresses a truth that those of us who are not mothers (and many of us who are) might be loath to acknowledge.
Uncomfortable though it may be, Bronsteinās movie draws us in and persuades our emotional investment despite its difficult and unlikable characters, thanks to her star player and her layered, puzzle-like screenplay, which captures Lindaās scattered psyche and warped perceptions with an approach that creates structure through fragments, clues and suggestions; and while it may not land quite as squarely as we might hope, in the end, its bold and discomforting style ā coupled with the career-topping performance at its center ā are more than enough reason to catch this Oscar āalso-ranā before putting this yearās award season behind you once and for all.
