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QUEERY: Derek Critzer

The artistic director of the new Clandestine Arts answers 20 gay questions

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After a stint in Orlando, Derek Critzer is launching a D.C.-based version of his Clandestine Arts theater company.

The new group, heavily LGBT in personnel, strives to offer ā€œaudiences a chance to embrace human emotions in the most raw form.ā€ Debut production ā€œBare: a Pop Operaā€ opens Feb. 19Ā and is slated to run through March 1 at the District of Columbia Arts Center (2438 18th St., N.W.). The Jon Hartmere and Damon Intrabartolo-penned piece tells of high school boyfriends Peter and Jason who struggle in their senior year at a Catholic high school, to reconcile their gay love with church teachings.

Tickets are $22. Visit clandestinedc.com to purchase.

Critzer, who still spends part of his time in Orlando working as an actor at Universal Studios, is a 23-year-old Waynesboro, Va., native. He says the D.C. areaā€™s thriving arts community was a draw for him and he started living here on and off about three years ago.

Critzer is single and lives in Alexandria, Va. The self-described ā€œtheme park junkieā€ also enjoys singing, dancing and theater in his free time.

 

How long have you been out and who was the hardest person to tell?

I came out my sophomore year of high school. The hardest person to tell is a very hard question. The people that should have been the hardest to tell were the easiest. My more religious friends at the time were the hardest people to tell. It generally was not something I kept from people.

 

Who’s your LGBT hero?Ā 

Ellen DeGeneres. I mean letā€™s be real, the woman is loved by everyone across the board. She is not afraid to stand up for what she believes in and her energy is always so positive and radiant and I adore her for it.

 

What’s Washington’s best nightspot, past or present?Ā 

The nightclub scene and I have never mixed. I feel out of place and it is just not my scene. However I do enjoy live music, so I am gonna go with the 9:30 Club.

 

Describe your dream wedding.Ā 

The beach at sunset, lots of candles in jars and stereotypical cheese that comes with weddings. Iā€™m kind of a 13-year-old girl in this aspect.

 

What non-LGBT issue are you most passionate about?

Keeping the arts alive in our public school systems.

 

What historical outcome would you change?

If I could change anything in history I would probably just go back in time and slap whomever invented the Snuggie, and everyone in the stupid commercial.

 

What’s been the most memorable pop culture moment of your lifetime?

I live a very sheltered life in the theater and miss many pop culture moments. But I am fully aware of pretty much everything Beyonce has ever done. Ever. So letā€™s just say Beyonce. I remember her. Forever. I may also want to be her, but thatā€™s another question entirely.

 

On what do you insist?

There is always more than one route to every destination. The path one person took to success is not the only way. Travel your winding roads, find your success along your own route in your time, your way.

 

What was your last Facebook post or Tweet?

ā€œNothing is an accident. We are free to have it all. Fortune favors the brave.ā€ These are lyrics from the musical ā€œAida,ā€ one of my favorites. The cast recording was speaking to me yesterday.

 

If your life were a book, what would the title be?

ā€œDaydreamerā€

 

If science discovered a way to change sexual orientation, what would you do?

Absolutely nothing.

 

What do you believe in beyond the physical world?

A creator and higher power.

 

What’s your advice for LGBT movement leaders?

Keep pushing. You have all come so far and as a community we have come leaps and bounds because you are not afraid to be the voice of the people.

 

What would you walk across hot coals for?

Sheetz MTO food. Do not judge.

 

What LGBT stereotype annoys you most?

Stereotypes in general annoy me. However I recognize that most are based on truth to an extent, I am just not a fan of labeling things. Twink, bear, otter the categories and labels and expectations annoy me. Just be who you wanna be.

 

What’s your favorite LGBT movie?

ā€œThe Birdcageā€

 

What’s the most overrated social custom?

Texting completely replacing phone calls. I love to text as much as the next guy, but I also still pick up the phone pretty frequently to chat. Which I catch flack for.

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What trophy or prize do you most covet?

I was recognized by Music Theatre International when I was 19 for a blog I wrote about work that I did on a children’s theater production. Three people were selected worldwide to attend a conference in New York and speak about their productions and their process. I was selected.

 

What do you wish you’d known at 18?

How much world is actually out there to be seen. That you will not always be the outcast, there is a world and a life waiting for you.

 

Why Washington?

Because of the thriving arts, beautiful scenery and landmarks and all the history surrounding it.

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What to expect at the 2024 National Cannabis Festival

Wu-Tang Clan to perform; policy discussions also planned

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Juicy J performs at the 2023 National Cannabis Festival (Photo credit: Alive Coverage)

(Editor’s note: Tickets are still available for the National Cannabis Festival, with prices starting at $55 for one-day general admission on Friday through $190 for a two-day pass with early-entry access. The Washington Blade, one of the event’s sponsors, will host a LGBTQIA+ Lounge and moderate a panel discussion on Saturday with the Mayor’s Office of LGBTQ Affairs.)


With two full days of events and programs along with performances by Wu-Tang Clan, Redman, and Thundercat, the 2024 National Cannabis Festival will be bigger than ever this year.

Leading up to the festivities on Friday and Saturday at Washington, D.C.’s RFK Stadium are plenty of can’t-miss experiences planned for 420 Week, including the National Cannabis Policy Summit and an LGBTQ happy hour hosted by the District’s Black-owned queer bar, Thurst Lounge (both happening on Wednesday).

On Tuesday, the Blade caught up with NCF Founder and Executive Producer Caroline Phillips, principal at The High Street PR & Events, for a discussion about the event’s history and the pivotal political moment for cannabis legalization and drug policy reform both locally and nationally. Phillips also shared her thoughts about the role of LGBTQ activists in these movements and the through-line connecting issues of freedom and bodily autonomy.

After D.C. residents voted to approve Initiative 71 in the fall of 2014, she said, adults were permitted to share cannabis and grow the plant at home, while possession was decriminalized with the hope and expectation that fewer people would be incarcerated.

“When that happened, there was also an influx of really high-priced conferences that promised to connect people to big business opportunities so they could make millions in what they were calling the ‘green rush,'” Phillips said.

“At the time, I was working for Human Rights First,” a nonprofit that was, and is, engaged in “a lot of issues to do with world refugees and immigration in the United States” ā€” so, “it was really interesting to me to see the overlap between drug policy reform and some of these other issues that I was working on,” Phillips said.

“And then it rubbed me a little bit the wrong way to hear about the ‘green rush’ before we’d heard about criminal justice reform around cannabis and before we’d heard about people being let out of jail for cannabis offenses.”

“As my interests grew, I realized that there was really a need for this conversation to happen in a larger way that allowed the larger community, the broader community, to learn about not just cannabis legalization, but to understand how it connects to our criminal justice system, to understand how it can really stimulate and benefit our economy, and to understand how it can become a wellness tool for so many people,” Phillips said.

“On top of all of that, as a minority in the cannabis space, it was important to me that this event and my work in the cannabis industry really amplified how we could create space for Black and Brown people to be stakeholders in this economy in a meaningful way.”

Caroline Phillips (Photo by Greg Powers)

“Since I was already working in event production, I decided to use those skills and apply them to creating a cannabis event,” she said. “And in order to create an event that I thought could really give back to our community with ticket prices low enough for people to actually be able to attend, I thought a large-scale event would be good ā€” and thus was born the cannabis festival.”

D.C. to see more regulated cannabis businesses ‘very soon’

Phillips said she believes decriminalization in D.C. has decreased the number of cannabis-related arrests in the city, but she noted arrests have, nevertheless, continued to disproportionately impact Black and Brown people.

“We’re at a really interesting crossroads for our city and for our cannabis community,” she said. In the eight years since Initiative 71 was passed, “We’ve had our licensed regulated cannabis dispensaries and cultivators who’ve been existing in a very red tape-heavy environment, a very tax heavy environment, and then we have the unregulated cannabis cultivators and cannabis dispensaries in the city” who operate via a “loophole” in the law “that allows the sharing of cannabis between adults who are over the age of 21.”

Many of the purveyors in the latter group, Phillips said, “are looking at trying to get into the legal space; so they’re trying to become regulated businesses in Washington, D.C.”

She noted the city will be “releasing 30 or so licenses in the next couple of weeks, and those stores should be coming online very soon” which will mean “you’ll be seeing a lot more of the regulated stores popping up in neighborhoods and hopefully a lot more opportunity for folks that are interested in leaving the unregulated space to be able to join the regulated marketplace.”

National push for de-scheduling cannabis

Signaling the political momentum for reforming cannabis and criminal justice laws, Wednesday’s Policy Summit will feature U.S. Sens. Raphael Warnock (D-Ga.), Jeff Merkley (D-Ore.), Elizabeth Warren (D-Mass.), and Chuck Schumer (D-N.Y.), the Senate majority leader.

Also representing Capitol Hill at the Summit will be U.S. Congresswoman Eleanor Holmes Norton (D-D.C.) and U.S. Reps. Earl Blumenauer (D-Ore.) and Barbara Lee (D-Calif.) — who will be receiving the Supernova Women Cannabis Champion Lifetime Achievement Award — along with an aide to U.S. Rep. David Joyce (R-Ohio).

Nationally, Phillips said much of the conversation around cannabis concerns de-scheduling. Even though 40 states and D.C. have legalized the drug for recreational and/or medical use, marijuana has been classified as a Schedule I substance since the Controlled Substances Act was passed in 1971, which means it carries the heftiest restrictions on, and penalties for, its possession, sale, distribution, and cultivation.

The U.S. Department of Health and Human Services formally requested the drug be reclassified as a Schedule III substance in August, which inaugurated an ongoing review, and in January a group of 12 Senate Democrats sent a letter to the Biden-Harris administration’s Drug Enforcement Administration urging the agency to de-schedule cannabis altogether.

Along with the Summit, Phillips noted that “a large contingent of advocates will be coming to Washington, D.C. this week to host a vigil at the White House and to be at the festival educating people” about these issues. She said NCF is working with the 420 Unity Coalition to push Congress and the Biden-Harris administration to “move straight to de-scheduling cannabis.”

“This would allow folks who have been locked up for cannabis offenses the chance to be released,” she said. “It would also allow medical patients greater access. It would also allow business owners the chance to exist without the specter of the federal government coming in and telling them what they’re doing is wrong and that they’re criminals.”

Phillips added, however, that de-scheduling cannabis will not “suddenly erase” the “generations and generations of systemic racism” in America’s financial institutions, business marketplace, and criminal justice system, nor the consequences that has wrought on Black and Brown communities.

An example of the work that remains, she said, is making sure “that all people are treated fairly by financial institutions so that they can get the funding for their businesses” to, hopefully, create not just another industry, but “really a better industry” that from the outset is focused on “equity” and “access.”

Policy wonks should be sure to visit the festival, too. “We have a really terrific lineup in our policy pavilion,” Phillips said. “A lot of our heavy hitters from our advocacy committee will be presenting programming.”

“On Saturday there is a really strong federal marijuana reform panel that is being led by Maritza Perez Medina from the Drug Policy Alliance,” she said. “So that’s going to be a terrific discussion” that will also feature “representation from the Veterans Cannabis Coalition.”

“We also have a really interesting talk being led by the Law Enforcement Action Partnership about conservatives, cops, and cannabis,” Phillips added.

Cannabis and the LGBTQ community

“I think what’s so interesting about LGBTQIA+ culture and the cannabis community are the parallels that we’ve seen in the movements towards legalization,” Phillips said.

The fight for LGBTQ rights over the years has often involved centering personal stories and personal experiences, she said. “And that really, I think, began to resonate, the more that we talked about it openly in society; the more it was something that we started to see on television; the more it became a topic in youth development and making sure that we’re raising healthy children.”

Likewise, Phillips said, “we’ve seen cannabis become more of a conversation in mainstream culture. We’ve heard the stories of people who’ve had veterans in their families that have used cannabis instead of pharmaceuticals, the friends or family members who’ve had cancer that have turned to CBD or THC so they could sleep, so they could eat so they could get some level of relief.”

Stories about cannabis have also included accounts of folks who were “arrested when they were young” or “the family member who’s still locked up,” she said, just as stories about LGBTQ people have often involved unjust and unnecessary suffering.

Not only are there similarities in the socio-political struggles, Phillips said, but LGBTQ people have played a central role pushing for cannabis legalization and, in fact, in ushering in the movement by “advocating for HIV patients in California to be able to access cannabis’s medicine.”

As a result of the queer community’s involvement, she said, “the foundation of cannabis legalization is truly patient access and criminal justice reform.”

“LGBTQIA+ advocates and cannabis advocates have managed to rein in support of the majority of Americans for the issues that they find important,” Phillips said, even if, unfortunately, other movements for bodily autonomy like those concerning issues of reproductive justice “don’t see that same support.”

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Juliet Hawkinsā€™s music defies conventional categorization

ā€˜Keep an open mind, an open heart, and a willingness to evolveā€™

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LONG BEACH, Calif. ā€“ Emerging from the dynamic music scene of Los Angeles, Juliet Hawkins seamlessly integrates deeply soulful vocals with contemporary production techniques, crafting a distinctive sound that defies conventional categorization.

Drawing inspiration from the emotive depth of Amy Winehouse and weaving together elements of country, blues, and pop, Hawkinsā€™ music can best be described as a fusionā€“perhaps best termed as soulful electronica. Yet, even this characterization falls short, as Hawkins defines herself as ā€œa blend of a million different inspirations.ā€

Hawkinsā€™s musical palette mirrors her personae: versatile and eclectic. Any conversation with Hawkins makes this point abundantly clear. She exhibits the archetype of a wild, musical genius while remaining true to her nature-loving, creative spirit. Whether recording in the studio for an album release, performing live in a studio setting, or playing in front of a live audience, Hawkins delivers her music with natural grace. 

Juliet Hawkins (Photo by David Khella)

However, Hawkinsā€™s musical journey is far from effortless. Amid personal challenges and adversity, she weaves her personal odyssey of pain and pleasure, transforming these experiences into empowering anthems.

In a candid interview with the Blade, Hawkins spoke with profound openness and vulnerability about her past struggles with opiate and heroin addiction: ā€œThat was 10 years ago that I struggled with opiates,ā€ she shared. Yet, instead of letting her previous addiction define her, Hawkins expressed to the Blade that she harbors no shame about her past. ā€œMy newer music is much more about empowerment than recovery,ā€ she explained, emphasizing that ā€œwriting was the best way to process trauma.ā€

Despite her struggles with addiction, Hawkins managed to recover. However, she emphasizes that this recovery is deeply intertwined with her spiritual connection to nature. An illustrative instance of Hawkinsā€™ engagement with nature occurred during the COVID pandemic.

Following an impulse that many of us have entertained, she bought a van and chose to live amidst the trees. It was during this period that Hawkins composed the music for her second EP, titled ā€œLead with Love.ā€

In many ways, Hawkins deep spiritual connection to nature has been profoundly shaped by her extensive travels. Born in San Diego, spending her formative years in Massachusetts, and later moving to Tennessee before returning to Southern California, she has broadened her interests and exposed herself to the diverse musical landscapes across America.

ā€œMusic is the only thing I have left,ā€ Hawkins confides to the Blade, highlighting the integral role that music has in her life. This intimate relationship with music is evident in her sultry and dynamic compositions. Rather than imitating or copying other artists, Hawkins effortlessly integrates sounds from some of her favorite musical influences to create something new. Some of these influences include LP, Lucinda Williams, Lana Del Rey, and, of course, Amy Winehouse, among others.

Juliet Hawkins (Photo by David Khella)

Hawkins has always been passionate about musicā€”-she began with piano at a young age, progressed to guitar, and then to bass, eagerly exploring any instrument she could get her hands on. However, instead of following a traditional path of formalized lessons and structured music theory, Hawkins told the Blade that she ā€œhas a hard time following directions and being told what to do.ā€

This independent approach has led her to experiment with various genres and even join unexpected groups, such as a tribute band for Eric Clapton and Cream. While she acknowledges that her eclectic musical interests might be attributed to ADHD, she holds a different belief: ā€œCreative minds like to move around.ā€

When discussing her latest musical release ā€” ā€œStay True (the live album)ā€ which was recorded in a live studio setting ā€” Hawkins describes the experience as a form of improvisation with both herself and the band:

ā€œ[The experience] was this divine honey that was flowing through all of us.ā€ She explains that this live album was uncertain in the musicā€™s direction. ā€œFor a couple of songs,ā€ Hawkins recalls, ā€œwe intuitively closed them out.ā€ By embracing creative spontaneity and refusing to be constrained by fear of mistakes, the live album authentically captures raw sound, complete with background chatter, extended outros, and an extremely somber cover of Ozzy Osbourneā€™s ā€œCrazy Trainā€ coupled with a slow piano and accompanied strings.

While ā€œStay Trueā€ was a rewarding experience for Hawkins, her favorite live performance took place in an unexpected locationā€”an unattended piano in the middle of an airport. As she began playing Beethovenā€™s ā€œMoonlight Sonataā€, Hawkins shared with the Blade a universal connection we all share with music: ā€œThis little girl was dancing as I was playing.ā€

After the performance, tears welled in Hawkinsā€™ eyes as she was touched by the young girlā€™s appreciation of her musicianship. Hawkins tells the Blade, ā€œItā€™s not about playing to an audienceā€”itā€™s about finding your people.ā€

Juliet Hawkins (Photo by David Khella)

What sets Hawkins apart as an artist is her ability to connect with her audience in diverse settings. She highlights EDC, an electronic dance music festival, as a place where she unabashedly lets her ā€œfreak flagā€ fly and a place to connect with her people. Her affinity for electronic music not only fuels her original pop music creations, but also inspires her to reinterpret songs with an electronic twist. A prime example of this is with her electronic-style cover of Tal Bachmanā€™s 90ā€™s hit, ā€œSheā€™s So High.ā€

As an openly queer woman in the music industry, Hawkins is on a mission to safeguard artistic integrity. In songs like ā€œMy Fatherā€™s Men,ā€ she bares her vulnerability and highlights the industryā€™s misogyny, which often marginalizes gender minorities in their pursuit of artistic expression.

She confides to the Blade, ā€œThe industry can be so sexist, misogynist, and oppressive,ā€ and points out that ā€œthere are predators in the industry.ā€ Yet, rather than succumbing to apathy, Hawkins is committed to advocating for gender minorities within the music industry.

ā€œLuckily, people are rising up against misogyny, but itā€™s still there. ā€˜My Fatherā€™s Menā€™ is a message: Itā€™s time for more people who arenā€™t just white straight men to have a say.ā€

Hawkins is also an activist for other causes, with a fervent belief in the preservation of bodily autonomy. Her self-directed music video ā€œIā€™ll play Daddy,ā€ showcases the joy of embracing oneā€™s body with Hawkins being sensually touched by a plethora of hands. While the song, according to Hawkins, ā€œfell upon deaf ears in the south,ā€ it hasnā€™t stopped Hawkins from continuing to fight for the causes she believes in. In her interview, Hawkins encapsulated her political stance by quoting an artist she admires:

ā€œTo quote Pink, ā€˜I donā€™t care about your politics, I care about your kids.ā€™ā€

When Hawkins isnā€™t writing music or being a champion for various causes, you might catch her doing the following: camping, rollerblading, painting, teaching music lessons, relaxing with Bernie (her beloved dog), stripping down for artsy photoshoots, or embarking on a quest to find the worldā€™s best hollandaise sauce.

But at the end of the day, Hawkins sums up her main purpose: ā€œTo come together with like-minded people and create.ā€

Juliet Hawkins (Photo by David Khella)

Part of this ever-evolving, coming-of-age-like journey includes an important element: plant-based medicine. Hawkins tells the Blade that she acknowledges her previous experience with addiction and finds certain plants to be useful in her recovery:

ā€œThe recovery thing is tricky,ā€ Hawkins explains, ā€œI donā€™t use opiatesā€”-no powders and no pillsā€”but I am a fan of weed, and I think psilocybin can be helpful when used at the right time.ā€ She emphasizes the role of psychedelics in guiding her towards her purpose. ā€œThanks for psychedelics, I have a reignited sense of purpose ā€¦ Music came naturally to me as an outlet to heal.ā€ 

While she views the occasional dabbling of psychedelics as a spiritual practice, Hawkins also embraces other rituals, particularly those she performs before and during live shows. ā€œI always carry two rocks with me: a labradorite and a tigerā€™s eye marble,ā€ she explains.

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Lavender Mass and the art of serious parody in protest

Part 3 of our series on the history of LGBTQ religion in D.C.

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The Sisters of Perpetual Indulgence have been parodying religion for decades. (Washington Blade file photo by Michael Key)

(Editorā€™s note: Although there has been considerable scholarship focused on LGBTQ community and advocacy in D.C., there is a deficit of scholarship focused on LGBTQ religion in the area. Religion plays an important role in LGBTQ advocacy movements, through queer-affirming ministers and communities, along with queer-phobic churches in the city. This is the final installment of a three-part series exploring the history of religion and LGBTQ advocacy in Washington, D.C. Visit our website for the previous installments.) 

Six sisters gathered not so quietly in Marion Park, Washington, D.C. on Saturday, October 8, 2022. As the first sounds of the Womenā€™s March rang out two blocks away at 11 am, the Sisters passed out candles to say Mass on the grass. It was their fifth annual Lavender Mass, but this yearā€™s event in particular told an interesting story of religious reclamation, reimagining a meaningful ritual from an institution that seeks to devalue and oppress queer people.

The D.C. Sisters are a chapter of the Sisters of Perpetual Indulgence, an organization of ā€œdrag nuns” ministering to LGBTQ+ and other marginalized communities. What first began as satire on Easter Sunday 1979 when queer men borrowed and wore habits from a production of The Sound of Music became a national organization; the D.C. chapter came about relatively late, receiving approval from the United Nuns Privy Council in April 2016. The D.C. Sisters raise money and contribute to organizations focused on underserved communities in their area, such as Moveable Feast and Trans Lifeline, much like Anglican and Catholic women religious orders.

As Sister Ray Dee Oā€™Active explained, ā€œwe tend to say we raise funds, fun, and hell. I love all three. Thousands of dollars for local LGBTQ groups. Pure joy at Pride parades when we greet the next generation of activists. And blatant response to homophobia and transphobia by protest after protest.ā€ The Lavender Mass held on October 8th embodied their response to transphobia both inside and outside pro-choice groups, specifically how the overturn of Roe v. Wade in June 2022 intimately affects members of the LGBTQ+ community.

 As a little history about the Mass, Sister Mary Full Oā€™Rage, shown wearing a short red dress and crimson coronet and veil in the photo above developed the Lavender Mass as a ā€œcounterpartā€ or ā€œcounter narrativeā€ to the Red Mass, a Catholic Mass held the first Sunday of October in honor Catholics in positions of civil authority, like the Supreme Court Justices. The plan was to celebrate this yearā€™s Lavender Mas on October 1st at the Nuns of the Battlefield Memorial, located right across the street from the Cathedral of St. Matthew the Apostle, where many Supreme Court Justices attend the Red Mass every year.

 As Sister Mary explained, this year ā€œit was intended to be a direct protest of the actions of the Supreme Court, in significant measure their overturning of reproductive rights.ā€

 Unfortunately, the October 1st event was canceled due to heavy rain and postponed to October 8th at the recommendation of Sister Ruth Lisque-Hunt and Sister Joy! Totheworld. The focus of the Womenā€™s March this year aligned with the focus of the Lavender Massā€”reproductive rightsā€”and this cause, Sister Mary explained, ā€œdrove us to plan our Lavender Mass as a true counter-ritual and protest of the Supreme Court of who we expected to attend the Red Mass,ā€ and who were protested in large at the Womenā€™s March. 

The ā€œLavender Mass was something that we could adopt for ourselves,ā€ Sister Mary spoke about past events. The first two Masses took place at the Lutheran Church of the Reformation, right around the corner from the Supreme Court. The second Mass, as Sister Mary explained, celebrated Justice Ruth Bader Ginsburg; ā€œwe canonized her.ā€ Canonization of saints in the Catholic Church also takes place during a Mass, a Papal Mass in particular.

 During the COVID-19 pandemic, the Sisters moved the Mass outside for safety, and the third and fourth Masses were celebrated at the Nuns of the Battlefield Memorial. ā€œIt celebrates nuns, and we are nuns, psycho-clown nuns,ā€ Sister Mary chuckled, ā€œbut we are nuns.ā€ After the Mass, the Sisters would gather at a LGBTQ+ safe space or protest at the Catholic Church or Supreme Court. Although they often serve as ā€œsister securityā€ at local events, working to keep queer community members safe according to Sister Amore Fagellare, the Lavender Mass is not widely publicly advertised, out of concern for their own.

 On October 8th, nine people gathered on the grass in a circleā€”six sisters, myself, and two people who were close with professed membersā€”as Sister Mary called us to assemble before leading us all in chanting the chorus to Sister Sledgeā€™s 1979 classic song ā€œWe Are Family.ā€ 

Next, novice Sister Sybil Liberties set a sacred space, whereby Sister Ruth and Sister Tearyn Upinjustice walked in a circle behind us, unspooling pink and blue ribbons to tie us together as a group. As Sister Sybil explained, ā€œwe surround this sacred space in protection and sanctify it with color,ā€ pink for the choice to become a parent and blue for the freedom to choose not to be a parent but also as Sybil elaboration, in recognition of ā€œthe broad gender spectrum of people with the ability to become pregnant.ā€ This intentional act was sought to fight transphobia within the fight for reproductive rights.

After singing Lesley Goreā€™s 1963 song ā€œYou Donā€™t Own Me,ā€ six speakers began the ritual for reproductive rights. Holding out our wax plastic candles, Sister Sybil explained that each speaker would describe a story or reality connected to reproductive rights, and ā€œas I light a series of candles for the different paths we have taken, if you recognize yourself in one of these prayers, I invite you to put your hand over your heart, wherever you are, and know that you are not alone ā€“ there is someone else in this gathered community holding their hand over their heart too.ā€

The Sisters went around the circle lighting a candle for those whose stories include the choice to end a pregnancy; those whose include the unwanted loss of a pregnancy or struggles with fertility; those whose include the choice to give birth, raise or adopt a child; those whose include the choice not to conceive a child, to undergo forced choice, or with no choice at all; those who have encountered violence where there ā€œshould have been tenderness and care;ā€ and those whose reproductive stories are still being written today.

After each reading, the group spoke together, ā€œmay the beginnings and endings in our stories be held in unconditional love and acceptance,ā€ recalling the Prayer of the Faithful or General Intercessions at Catholic Masswhere congregations respond ā€œLord, hear our prayerā€ to each petition. Sister Sybil closed out the ritual as Sister Mary cut the blue and pink ribbons between each person, creating small segments they could take away with them and tie to their garments before walking to the Womenā€™s March. The Sisters gathered their signs, drums, and horns before walking to Folger Park together into the crowd of protestors.

 At first glance, the Lavender Mass may appear like religious appropriation, just as the Sisters themselves sometimes look to outsiders. They model themselves after Angelican and Catholic women religious, in dressā€”they actively refer to their clothing as ā€œhabits,ā€ their organizationā€”members must also go through aspirant, postulant, and novice stages to be fully professed and they maintain a hierarchical authority, and in action. Like white and black habits, the Sisters all wear white faces to create a unified image and colorful coronets, varying veil color based on professed stage. Sister Allie Lewya explained at their September 2022 meeting, ā€œsomething about the veils gives us a lot of authority that is undue,ā€ but as the Sisters reinforced at the Womenā€™s March, they are not cosplayers nor customers, rather committed clergy.  

As such, the Sisters see their existence within the liminal spaces between satire, appropriation, and reimagination, instead reclaiming the basis of religious rituals to counter the power holders of this tradition, namely, to counter the Catholic Church and how it celebrates those in positions of authority who restrict reproductive rights. Similarly, the Lavender Mass is modeled after a Catholic or Anglican Mass. It has an intention, namely reproductive rights, a call to assemble, setting of a sacred space, song, chant, and prayer requests. It even uses religious terminology; each section of the Mass is ended with a ā€œmay it be/Amen/Awen/Ashay/aho.ā€

 While this ritualā€”the Lavender Massā€”appropriates a religious ritual of the Catholic Church and Anglican Church, this religious appropriation is necessitated by exclusion and queerphobia. As David Ford explains in Queer Psychology, many queer individuals retain a strong connection to their faith communities even though they have experienced trauma from these same communities. Jodi Oā€™Brien builds on this, characterizing Christian religious institutions as spaces of personal meaning making and oppression. This essay further argues that the fact this ritual is adopted and reimagined by a community that the dominant ritual holderā€”the Catholic Churchā€”oppressed and marginalized, means that it is not religious appropriation at all.

Religious appropriation, as highlighted in Liz Bucarā€™s recent book, Stealing My Religion (2022), is the acquisition or use of religious traditions, rituals, or objects without a full understanding of the community for which they hold meaning. The Sisters, however, fully understand the implications of calling themselves sisters and the connotations of performing a ritual they call a ā€œMassā€ as women religious, a group that do not have this authority in the Catholic Church. It is the reclamation of a tradition that the Sisters of Perpetual Indulgence understand because some were or are part of the Catholic Church.

 Some sisters still seek out spiritual meaning, but all also recognize that the Catholic Church itself is an institution that hinders their sistersā€™ access and actively spreads homophobia and transphobia to this day. As such, through the Lavender Mass, the sisters have reclaimed the Mass as a tool of rebellion in support of queer identity.

 Just as the Sisters recognize the meaning and power of the ritual of a Mass, along with the connotations of being a sister, the Lavender Mass fulfilled its purpose as a ritual of intention just as the Sisters fulfill public servants. ā€œAs a sister,ā€ Sister Ruth dissected, ā€œas someone who identifies as a drag nun, it perplexes people, but when you get the nitty gritty, we serve a similar purpose, to heal a community, to provide support to a community, to love a community that has not been loved historically in the ways that it should be loved.

 The Sistersā€™ intentionality in recognizing and upholding the role of a woman religious in their work has been well documented as a serious parody for the intention of queer activism by Melissa Wilcox. The Lavender Mass is a form of serious parody, as Wilcox posits in the book: Queer Nuns: Religion, Activism, and Serious Parody(2018). The Mass both challenges the queerphobia of the Catholic Church while also reinforcing the legitimacy of this ritual as a Mass. The Sisters argue that although they would traditionally be excluded from religious leadership in the Catholic Church, they can perform a Mass. In doing so, they challenge the role that women religious play in the Catholic Church as a whole and the power dynamics that exclude queer communities from living authentically within the Church.

By reclaiming a tradition from a religious institution that actively excludes and traumatizes the LGBTQ+ community, the Lavender Mass is a form of religious reclamation in which an oppressed community cultivates queer religious meaning, reclaims a tradition from which they are excluded, and uses it to fuel queer activism (the fight for reproductive rights). This essay argues that the Lavender Mass goes one step further than serious parody. While the Sisters employ serious parody in their religious and activist roles, the Lavender Mass is the active reclamation of a religious tradition for both spiritual and activist ends.

 Using the celebration of the Mass as it was intended, just within a different lens for a different purpose, this essay argues, is religious reclamation. As a collection of Austrian and Aotearoan scholars explored most recently in a chapter on acculturation and decolonization, reclamation is associated with the reassertion and ownership of tangibles: of rituals, traditions, objects, and land. The meaning of the Lavender Mass comes not only from the Sistersā€™ understanding of women religious as a social and religious role but rather from the reclamation of a physical ritualā€”a Massā€”that has specific religious or spiritual meaning for the Sisters.

 When asked why it was important to call this ritual a ā€œMass,ā€ Sister Mary explained: ā€œI think we wanted to have something that denoted a ritual, that was for those who know, that the name signifies that it was a counter-protest. And you know, many of the sisters grew up with faith, not all of them Catholics but some, so I think ā€˜Massā€™ was a name that resonated for many of us.ā€  

 As Sister Ray said, ā€œmy faith as a queer person tends to ostracize me but the Sisters bring the imagery and language of faith right into the middle of the LGBTQ world.ā€ This Lavender Mass, although only attended and experienced by a few of the Womenā€™s March protests, lived up to its goal as ā€œa form of protest that is hopefully very loud,ā€ as Sister Millie Taint advertised in the Sistersā€™ September 2022 chapter meeting. It brought religious imagery and language of faith to a march for reproductive rights, using a recognized model of ritual to empower protestors.

The Lavender Mass this year, as always, was an act of rebellion, but by situating itself before the Womenā€™s March and focusing its intention for reproductive rights, the Sistersā€™ reclaimed a religious ritual from a system of authority which actively oppressed LGBTQ+ peoples and those with the ability to become pregnant, namely the Catholic Church, and for harnessing it for personal, political, and spiritual power. In essence, it modelled a system of religious reclamation, by which a marginalized community takes up a religious ritual to make its own meaning and oppose the religious institution that seeks to exclude the community from ritual participation.  

Emma Cieslik will be presenting on LGBTQ+ Religion in the Capital at the DC History Conference on Friday, April 6th. She is working with a DC History Fellow to establish a roundtable committed to recording and preserving this vital history. If you have any information about these histories, please reach out to Emma Cieslik at [email protected] or the Rainbow History Project at [email protected].

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