Advice
Lesbian wife suddenly wants to become a mom no matter what
Couple reaches stalemate over whether or not to start a family
Michael,
My wife has decided we have to have a baby but I have no interest in becoming a mom.
She never brought this up as something she wanted for the two years we were dating. In fact, we often poked fun at the new expectation that gay couples should be just like straight couples, settling down to have children after the wedding.Ā
But we got married a year ago and here we are in this predicament. Ashley turned 38 last month and her younger sister just had a baby who is the first grandchild in the family. Ashley says that seeing her sister bond with our new niece has made her realize that she wants to be a mother.
Because sheās afraid sheās getting too old to get pregnant, Ashley is pushing me to get on board so that she can start trying right away. But thereās no way I want to do this.
Iām not interested in putting in the time to raise a child. Iāve never particularly liked children and I donāt even like spending time with our new niece, who mainly wails.
Iām also far more interested in using my free time and extra cash for leisure than for monitoring playdates and paying tuition.
Ashley says Iām being selfish, not thinking how important this is to her. By that logic, isnāt she being selfish by not thinking how important it is for me not to have a child?
She also says that itās important to āgive backā to the world by raising a child. But I give a lot of money to charities that help animals and the environment. I think there are too many humans already and weāre making a mess of this planet. It seems crazy to go out of our way to create more.
Very seriously, I also wonder what any childās life will be like when they grow up, given the increasingly dire predictions about global warming. Why bring someone into this world that is likely going to be a scary and difficult place to live?
But above all, I just donāt want to put in the time and resources necessary to properly raise a child. Yet Ashley is determined to do this and I canāt reason her out of this. Weāre at a stalemate.Ā Any pointers for how we can figure this out?
Michael replies:
Youāre finding out how challenging marriage can be.Ā
We think we know the person we marry, we think weāre on the same page regarding all the important stuff, and then, wham! The other person keeps changing. And so do we.Ā
Thatās marriage.
If youāre determined not to have a child and itās more important for you to be childless than to be with Ashley, and if Ashley would rather have a child than be childless with you, then the two of you have three choices: You can end your marriage right now, you can stay together and feel resentful and miserable about your lot in life going forward or you can challenge yourself to wholeheartedly change the vision you have for your life.
So, before considering deal breakers and end games, talk with each other about why what you want is important to you. And listen to your spouseās answer with an open mind. The winner/loser dynamic is a surefire way to destroy goodwill in a relationship, so stop trying to talk your spouse out of her opinion.
Instead, strive to be curious, to learn why your partner has this dream for her life. One of you might decide that because you love your wife and do not want to lose the relationship, you are willing to support her dream, even if your life wonāt play out the way youād hoped.Ā
This is not about compromise. Supporting your partnerās dream means being all in.
One important aspect of marriage is dealing with our differences. If you can manage this without losing yourself or losing the other, youāre likely to have a vital, resilience-building journey through life.
That said, if you remain married there is no way for Ashley to be a mother and for you not to be a mother. If you do agree to become a parent, you will have to be a loving parent and give your child your best. It would be an injustice to the child not to do so.
Even with a small child, it is possible to have some life of your own and some leisure time. If you speak with parents whom you know with children of varying ages, you might learn that the picture is not as bleak as you imagine. Kids donāt remain wailing infants forever, but at first they can be all-consuming.
I understand your concern about bringing children into this world. At present, things do seem awfully bleak for humankind going forward. Though there are no guarantees, perhaps you would raise a thoughtful child who might make a positive difference toward a better future for our planet.
Michael Radkowsky, Psy.D. is a licensed psychologist who works with LGBT couples and individuals in D.C. He can be found online atĀ michaelradkowsky.com. All identifying information has been changed for reasons of confidentiality. Have a question? Send it to [email protected].
Advice
Should I divorce my husband for the hot new guy in our building?
Debating whether to leave or stay after the sex goes cold
Dear Michael,
Iāve been with my husband for 10 years and the sex is pretty much gone. It stopped being exciting a long time ago and pretty much the only time we ever do it is with the occasional third.
A really hot guy moved into our building about a year ago. We would see each other sometimes in the elevator or at our buildingās gym and we started talking and really hit it off. Mark is 15 years younger than I but we seem to have a lot in common. We started hooking up and the sex is amazing.
I havenāt told my husband because itās breaking our rule about no repeats. I have to say that the secrecy is hot. Itās kind of a thrill to take the elevator upstairs when I say Iām going on an errand. But itās more than that. I have a connection with Mark that is far more amazing than what I have ever felt with my husband. Not just the sex. We just enjoy being together, talking about anything and everything.
My husband went to visit his family last weekend and I spent the whole time with Mark. Since then I canāt stop thinking that I want to leave my husband and be with Mark.
Part of me thinks this is a crazy mid-life crisis. I mean, this kidās in a totally different place in life. But we have mind-blowing sex and a fantastic connection. Iād like your thoughts on how to proceed.
Michael replies:
Youāve got a lot to consider.
First: Sex with a long-term partner changes over time. It tends to be less about erotic heat and more about the connection with a person whom you love. In other words, itās being with the person youāre with that makes the sex meaningful and even great. Having a good sexual relationship with a long-term partner comes far more from a heart connection than from a crotch attachment.
Second: You seem ready to throw your relationship under the bus pretty quickly, without addressing other problems in the relationship besides sex. When you are sneaking around, lying, and rule-breaking , I donāt see how you can look your husband in the eye; and if you canāt look him in the eye, you certainly canāt have even a half-way decent relationship.
Yet another point to consider: Affairs pretty much always seem more exciting than marriage. The partner is new, which almost automatically makes the sex hotter; the secrecy is a thrill; and you donāt have to deal with paying the rent, house chores, and all the petty annoyances of living up-close with someone day-in, day-out.
You are bringing lots of energy to your affair, and everything about it is exciting. You are bringing no energy ā at least no positive energy ā to your marriage. You get what you put into a relationship.
Divorce is not something that should be entered into lightly. Be aware that if you leave your husband for Mark, you will no doubt find over time that the sex becomes less exciting and that the connection is not always fantastic. No surprise, 75 percent of marriages that begin with affair partners end in divorce. While I donāt think statistics predict what will happen to any particular couple, believing that you will have a significantly better relationship with your affair partner than you did with your husband sets you up for likely disappointment.
Many gay men focus on “hot sex” as the big draw, pursuing a lot of sex with a lot of men, and/or pursuing an ongoing series of relationships that last until the sex cools. If thatās what you want, thatās fine. But itās a different path from pursuing a close and loving long-term relationship, which involves knowing someone well and having him know you well; collaborating on getting through the hard stuff life throws at us; finding ways to make peace with disappointment; and consistently striving to be someone worth being married to.
How to proceed? While you are the only person who should make that decision, I would suggest that whatever your choice, keep in mind that marriage can be more than what youāve made of it, so far.
Michael Radkowsky, Psy.D. is a licensed psychologist who works with couples and individuals in D.C. He can be found online atĀ michaelradkowsky.com. All identifying information has been changed for reasons of confidentiality. Have a question? Send it toĀ [email protected].
Advice
Giving up drinking is killing our relationship
What happens when one partner is sober and the other isnāt
Iām a 38-year-old guy, was single for most of my 30s, which I didnāt like at all, and I finally met a great guy last Memorial Day Weekend.
Until New Yearās I would have said that everything was going great. I was on Cloud Nine. Eric is kind, handsome, smart, and a great catch.
But in December he decided to do āDry January.ā It was kind of on a whim I think. We were out with some friends and one of them said he was not going to drink at all for the month of January.Ā He thought alcohol was playing too big a role in his life so he wanted to see what life would be like without it. Another friend said he would do it too, and then Eric said he would.
I wish we hadnāt gone out that night and then this whole thing wouldnāt have happened.
So, as the month progressed, Eric started talking more and more about how much better he was feeling without alcohol in his body or his life.
I donāt think we drank that much pre-January. Yes, weād have something to drink every time we went out, with friends or just together, but not to excess.
At some point, Eric started saying that he wasnāt really enjoying going out with our friends, as he wasnāt drinking and they were (except the two friends who were also doing the Dry January thing). This meant Iād either go out without him (which I didnāt like) or weād stay home, or go out just the two of us. But then if Iām drinking and heās not, it just feels awkward. He hasnāt said anything but I feel like heās judging me whenever I have a drink.
I was hoping heād relax about the whole thing at the end of the month but now heās decided he doesnāt want to drink anymore at all.
To make matters worse, he says that the month made him think more about the big role alcohol plays in his life (his words) and he has started going to Alcoholics Anonymous meetings.
So where does this leave me? I do want to keep drinking. Iām just a social drinker and I donāt have a problem with alcohol. I think it adds a fair amount of fun to my life. Plus, all my friends drink (including the two who did Dry January) and itās a big part of our socializing. If you donāt drink when everyone else is drinking, itās really not fun and it feels weird.
At this point Eric doesnāt go out with the friend group we were going out with because he doesnāt have a good time as the only non-drinker. (I get it, thatās one of the reasons I drink when my friends are drinking.) So I go out sometimes without him, which as I mentioned doesnāt feel so good, and which I donāt think is great for our relationship; or I donāt go out with my friends, which I donāt like.
I love Eric and I could see us having a great life together but his not drinking has opened what feels like a chasm between us.
How do couples handle this situation, where one person wants to stop drinking and the other does not? The impact is seeming increasingly huge to me and I donāt see how to make it stop being a divisive problem.
Michael replies:
I donāt think that Ericās sobriety needs to be a divisive problem, if you can tolerate that you donāt get to have your life with Eric be exactly as you would like.
This is the same dilemma that everyone in a serious relationship must face. Our partners are always different from us in some important ways, even if it doesnāt seem that way at first. And we have to figure out how to live with these differences, contentedly for the most part. Our partners face the same challenge.
Of course, not every difference can be (or should be) resolvable. For example, if one person is determined to parent and the other person is determined to be child-free, it makes great sense to part ways ā unless one person decides theyād rather stay with their partner than have it their way.
You and Eric have to figure out if your differences around alcohol are a deal-breaker, or if you can find a way to build a solid relationship, even as you drink socially and he is sober.
Whether and how you do this are for the two of you to figure out. That said, here are some ideas for your consideration:
- Can you accept Ericās not joining you for some or even many of your social activities?
- Can you and Eric talk about what might help him be more comfortable joining your friends now and then?
- Can you ask Eric what itās like for him when you are drinking, rather than assuming that he is judging you? (Important question for your consideration: What led you to make that assumption rather than asking him?)
- If Eric is making friends in Alcoholics Anonymous, would you want to join him at times when he socializes with them?
The main ingredients here are generosity, flexibility, collaboration, and curiosity.
Speaking of curiosity, rather than wishing that the two of you had missed that invitation to participate in Dry January, how about being curious about Ericās decision to stop drinking? I suspect that your dismissiveness has a negative impact on his desire to be close to or confide in you. If you are curious about this important life change that Eric is undertaking, you will certainly learn a lot about your boyfriend, and likely deepen your connection.
Michael Radkowsky, Psy.D. is a licensed psychologist who works with couples and individuals in D.C. He can be found online atĀ michaelradkowsky.com. All identifying information has been changed for reasons of confidentiality. Have a question? Send it toĀ [email protected].
Advice
Tips for strengthening your relationship
On Valentineās Day, recommit to tackling challenges together
Working as a couples therapist, Iāve had many people tell me over the years how difficult they think it is to have a happy relationship. āThe divorce rate is over 50%.ā āItās so much work.ā āIf itās this hard, something must be wrong.ā
Hereās some very good news: The high divorce rate and the number of failed relationships you see around you need have no impact on the success of your own relationship.
While building and maintaining a healthy relationship takes effort, doing so is possible, and the ongoing challenge of finding creative and loving ways to handle tough challenges can actually be fun.
In the spirit of Valentineās Day, here are my top suggestions for steps you can take to have a great relationship.
Please keep in mind that while these steps are simple in concept, they are not always easy to practice. So donāt get discouraged. And remember that if you consistently work at doing your best in your relationship, doing so will likely get easier over time.
- Strive to always have a sense of humor about how difficult relationships can be. Weāre all different in big ways, so of course itās hard to share your life with someone at times. If you can keep this in mind instead of thinking āthis should be easy,ā you will actually have a much easier time navigating the challenges of being coupled.
- Avoid wanting to be āright.ā By this, I mean both trying to prove to your partner that you are right, and simply maintaining the belief in your mind that you are right. Wallowing in this belief gives you a sense of superiority, competition, and grievance, all of which are corrosive to your relationship. In addition, if there is a winner in the relationship, there is a loser, and thatās a terrible dynamic for a couple to have.
- Aim to be generous: Be open to saying āyesā to your partnerās requests whenever possible; endeavor not to keep score on who has been more generous; and make it a priority to support your partnerās happiness. And at the same time:
- Have a boundary when necessary. When you say āno,ā do so from your integrity, not from scorekeeping or spite. This means understanding why something is important to your partner, while at the same time being clear that something different is even more important to you that requires saying ānoā to your partnerās request.
- Accept that disappointment is inevitable in every relationship. Because we are all different, we will at times see, understand, think, prioritize, and behave in ways that are very different from our partners, including on important matters. Therefore, itās inevitable that we will occasionally be gravely disappointed in our partners, just as they will be gravely disappointed in us. Thatās life. Accepting this truth can make it easier to bear.
- Advocate for what is important to you. Two caveats, though. First, you donāt want to weigh down the relationship with too many requests. Second, be prepared to not always get what you ask for. It is not your partnerās job to meet your every want.
- Donāt wait for your partner to make the first move when you want something to happen. If both of you are waiting for the other person to go first, nothing will happen. This includes (but is absolutely not limited to) apologies, initiating sex, planning vacations, and starting hard conversations.
On a related note:
- Focus on what you can do to improve a situation, rather than on what your partner is doing, is not doing, or should be doing. We donāt have much power over the other person, but we have a lot of power over ourselves.
A special note for gay men: Open relationships appear to be practically the norm these days, but they are tricky to conduct well. (Yes, monogamy has its own challenges.) Jealousy, messy boundaries, dishonesty, and trust issues get easily activated. If you want to build a strong open relationship, be aware that doing so takes a lot of skill, a lot of honesty, a lot of acceptance, and some ways of keeping your primary relationship special.
Also keep in mind that being a gay man doesnāt automatically provide skills such as:
- The solidity of self to be trusting and generous.
- The ability to sense how far boundaries can be pushed without doing too much damage.
- The capacity to transcend feelings of jealousy and pain.
- The strength of character not to idealize outside sex partners.
Wishing you a happy Valentineās Day!
Michael Radkowsky, Psy.D. is a licensed psychologist who works with couples and individuals in D.C. He can be found online atĀ michaelradkowsky.com. All identifying information has been changed for reasons of confidentiality. Have a question? Send it toĀ [email protected].
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