Arts & Entertainment
Coronavirus claims iconic LGBTQ playwright Terrence McNally
Succumbed to complications from COVID-19 at the age of 81
The theatre community, already hard hit by the coronavirus pandemic, has been dealt a painful blow with the news that Terrence McNally, the 4-time Tony winning playwright whose work portrayed a rich range of human emotional experience and broke barriers in its depiction of gay life, has succumbed to complications from COVID-19 at the age of 81.
McNally, who was a survivor of lung cancer and lived with chronic COPD, died on Tuesday at the Sarasota Memorial Hospital in Florida.
Born in St. Petersburg, Florida, McNally grew up in Corpus Christi, Texas, where his New York-born parents instilled in him a love for theatre from an early age. After earning a BA at Columbia University in 1960, he developed a relationship with author John Steinbeck, who hired the young playwright to accompany his family on a worldwide cruise as a tutor to his teenage sons. Steinbeck would later enlist McNally to write the libretto for āHereās Where I Belong,ā a musical stage adaptation of the authorās classic novel, āEast of Eden.ā
During his early years in New York, McNally also developed a relationship with fellow playwright Edward Albee, whom he met when the two shared a cab; the pair were essentially a couple for four years, during the period in which Albee wrote āThe American Dreamā and āWhoās Afraid of Virginia Woolf?,ā two of his most important works. It was a romance that would cast a shadow over McNallyās early career, when some critics dismissed him as āthe boyfriendā after the premiere of his Broadway debut, āAnd Things That Go Bump in the Night.ā The play, which was McNallyās first effort in three acts, flopped due to poor initial reviews ā attributed by author Boze Hadleigh in his book, āWhoās Afraid of Terrence McNally,ā to homophobia from conservative New York critics ā even after subsequent critical reaction and audience response proved to be more favorable.
After the failure of his initial foray onto the Broadway stage, McNally rebounded with an acclaimed one-act, āNext,ā which featured James Coco as a middle-aged man mistakenly drafted into the army and was directed by Elaine May, and was presented Off-Broadway in a double bill with Mayās āAdaptationā in 1967. Several other one-acts followed, and the playwright gained a reputation for tackling edgy subject matter with sharp social commentary, biting dialogue, and farcical situations. He also attracted early controversy for featuring onstage nudity (from actress Sally Kirkland) for the entire length of his kidnapping drama, āSweet Eros.ā
Success came his way in the seventies, when he racked up an Obie award for 1974ās āBad Habits,ā and a Broadway hit with āThe Ritz,ā a risquĆ© farce set in a gay bathhouse where a straight middle-aged business man unwittingly goes into hiding to escape his wifeās murderous mafioso brother. Adapted from his own earlier play, āThe Tubs,ā it was subsequently turned into a 1976 film version (directed by āA Hard Dayās Nightā filmmaker Richard Lester), starring original stage cast members Jack Weston, Jerry Stiller, F. Murray Abraham, and Rita Moreno (reprising her Tony-winning role as bathhouse chanteuse Googie Gomez), as well as featuring a blonde-dyed Treat Williams in an early appearance as an undercover cop.
After another series of career setbacks, McNally rebounded again in the eighties with more Off-Broadway acclaim for his play, āFrankie and Johnny in the Clair de Lune,ā which starred Kathy Bates and F. Murray Abraham. The playwright has said that it was his first work after becoming sober, telling the New York Times in 2019, āThere was certainly a change in my work. Itās hard to know who you are if youāre drunk all the time. It clouds your thinking. I started thinking more about my people ā my characters.ā
It was in the nineties, however, that McNally blossomed into a master playwright, with plays like āLips Together, Teeth Apart,ā which placed AIDS squarely in the backdrop of its story about two married couples spending a weekend on Fire Island, and āMaster Class,ā a tour-de-force one-woman show about Maria Callas which featured Zoe Caldwell in a widely acclaimed performance.
It was also during this period that McNally wrote āLove! Valour! Compassion!,ā an expansive play about a group of gay friends who spend three successive holiday weekends over the course of a summer together at a lake house in upstate New York. Transferring to Broadway after a successful debut at the Manhattan Theatre Club ā with which McNally had a long association, and where he developed several of his important works ā in a production directed by Joe Mantello, it was a pastoral, introspective, Chekhovian drama that offered deeply-drawn, non-stereotypical portrayals of gay characters confronting the various issues in their lives and their relationships; it was also a snapshot of life at the height of the AIDS crisis, exploring the ways in which the spectre of the disease was an unavoidable part of day-to-day life that encroached upon every aspect of gay experience. McNallyās script, bolstered by the richly human performances of an ensemble cast that included Nathan Lane, John Glover, John Benjamin Hickey, Anthony Heald, and Justin Kirk, countered the potential for moroseness with warmth and humor, and the play is now widely seen, alongside plays such as Tony Kushnerās āAngels in Americaā and Paul Rudnickās āJeffrey,ā as one of the most important theatrical works of the AIDS era. A film version in 1997 reunited most of the original stage cast, though the notably straight Jason Alexander replaced Lane in the role of Buzz, the most outwardly flamboyant of the playās eight gay characters.
It was in the nineties when McNally also established himself as an important figure in the musical genre, contributing the libretto for John Kander and Fred Ebbās āThe Rinkā (a short-lived musical drama starring Chita Rivera and Liza Minnelli) before going on to collaborate again with the legendary score composers on āKiss of the Spider Woman,ā their musical version of the Manuel Puig novel about the unlikely friendship that develops between a political revolutionary and a gay window dresser as they share a cell in a Mexican prison. The musical (which also starred Rivera) was a smash hit and won McNally his first Tony (Best Book for a Musical) in 1993.
In 1998, he won another Tony in the same category for the libretto of āRagtime,ā a widely-acclaimed musical adaptation of the E.L. Doctorow novel exploring racism against the backdrop of the turn of the 20th Century with a score by Stephen Flaherty and Lynne Ahrens.
His other two Tonys were for āLove! Valour! Compassion!ā and āMaster Class,ā in 1995 and 1996, respectively.
In his later career, McNally courted controversy once again with āCorpus Christi,ā a 1998 āpassion playā that queered the biblical story of Jesus and the Apostles by reimagining them as gay men living in modern-day Texas. At the time, the production was met with protests (McNally himself received death threats), although reviewers found its content to be surprisingly uncontroversial, with Jason Zinoman of the New York Times calling it āearnest and reverentā and āmore personal than political.ā
Other notable dramatic works included āThe Lisbon Traviata,ā
āItās Only A Play,ā āA Perfect Ganesh,ā āThe Stendahl Syndrome,ā āMothers and
Sons,ā and his last, 2018ās āFire and Air.ā He also wrote librettos for the musicals
āThe Full Monty,ā āA Man of No Importance,ā āAnastasia,ā and āThe Visitā (also
with Kander and Ebb, and also starring Rivera), and for the operas āDead Man Walking,ā
āThree Decembers,ā and āGreat Scott.ā
He also wrote for television, including an Emmy-winning teleplay for the 1988 AIDS
drama āAndreās Mother.ā For film, he wrote the screenplays for the film
adaptations of his plays, āThe Ritz,ā āLove! Valour! Compassion!,ā and āFrankie
and Johnny at the Clair de Luneā (retitled as simply āFrankie and Johnnyā).
Besides his Tony and Emmy wins, he also earned three Drama Desk Awards, two Lucille Lortel Awards, and two Obies, as well as a Pulitzer Prize nomination.
In addition to his four competitive Tonys, he was awarded a Special Tony Award for Lifetime Achievement in 2019.
He was also the recipient of two Guggenheim Fellowships and a Rockefeller Grant.
McNally is survived by his husband, Thomas Kirdahy, whom he wed in 2010 after a long relationship. Other survivors include a brother Peter McNally, and his wife Vicky McNally, along with their children and grandchildren; also listed among the survivors are Mother-in-Law Joan Kirdahy, sister/brother-in-laws Carol Kirdahy, Kevin Kirdahy, James Kirdahy, Kathleen Kirdahy Kay, and Neil Kirdahy.
Books
Fall books offer something for every taste
Hollinghurstās latest plus a look at Queer Harlem Renaissance
Welcome to the fall book season, where you’ll find gifts for your friends, family and (most importantly?) the best reads for yourself. This is when you’ll find the blockbuster novels you’ve been waiting for, the surprise memoirs and nonfiction that you’ve wanted, and gorgeous gift books your coffee table. This fall, keep your eyes open for all kinds of literary goodness.
NOVELS
Lovers of a good novel will want to curl up with a huge TBR pile.
Romance novels will fill the shelves this fall, and if love is what you want for the holidays, you’re in luck. Look for “The Rules of Royalty” by Cale Dietrich (Wednesday Books, December), a modern tale of a prince and a “commoner”; or “Feast While You Can” by Mikealla Clements and Onjuli Datta (Grand Central Publishing), a scary-romance-erotica novel of small-town life and monsters.
Reach for “Our Evenings: A Novel” by Alan Hollinghurst (Random House, October), a novel of a young man who happily accepts a scholarship to a boarding school filled with classmates who are much, much wealthier than he is. “The Wildes: A Novel in Five Acts” by Louis Bayard (Algonquin Books, September) is a historical novel about Oscar Wilde’s family.
For lovers of Gothic tales, look for “The Resurrectionist” by A. Rae Dunlap (Kensington, December), a tale of bodysnatching. Classics lovers will want to read “Private Rites: A Novel” by Julia Armfield (Flatiron Books, December), a queer reimagining of King Lear. Or find “Women’s Hotel” by Daniel M. Lavery (HarperVia, October), a book about a second-rate women-only hotel in New York City.
If your taste runs more to rom-coms, there are dozens of those available this fall, too, as well as Christmas novels with gay, lesbian, and trans characters inside.
NONFICTION
Even nonfiction readers will have reason to read this fall and winter.
Look for “Flamboyants: The Queer Harlem Renaissance I Wish I’d Known” by George M. Johnson and Charly Palmer (Farrar, Straus and Giroux, September), a book about 1920s Harlem and the influential queer folks who left their marks on entertainment.
“Something, Not Nothing” by Sarah Leavitt (Arsenal Pulp Press, September) chronicles, in comic form, the death of Leavitt’s partner and the paths grief takes to healing. Learn more about LGBTQ history with “The Book of Awesome Queer Heroes: How the LGBTQ+ Community Changed the World for the Better” by Eric Rosswood and Kathleen Archambeau (Mango, December); check out Mary L. Trump’s heartbreaking memoir, “Who Could Ever Love You?” (St. Martin’s Press, September); or check out a collection of essays in “Songs On Endless Repeat: Essays and Outtakes” by Anthony Veasna So (Ecco, December). Look for “Want: Sexual Fantasies by Anonymous,” an anthology of secret confessions from women around the country, by Gillian Anderson (Abrams Press, September), or find “Queer Disability through History: The Queer and Disabled Movements Through Their Personalities” by Daisy Holder (Pen and Sword History, November). Also: Cher has a new biography out this fall, “The Memoir, Part One” (Dey Street Books, November).
Not quite what you’re looking for? Check with your favorite bookseller or librarian for more ideas because, this fall, they’ll have lots of them. Or give a gift certificate and hold on for spring. Season’s readings!
It might be too soon to get excited about the movies we know are coming later in the year ā like the first installment of the big-screen adaptation of āWickedā or Pedro AlmodĆ³varās first English language movie āThe Room Next Doorā ā but that doesnāt mean thereās still not plenty to look forward to as their time draws nearer. As always, weāve compiled a preview of the most interesting LGBTQ and related content coming to movie and TV screens over the weeks ahead, so get ready to plan out your own watchlist as you keep reading below.
āThe English Teacherā (Hulu, now streaming): In its publicity blurb, weāre told that educators being forced to navigate āa lot of bullshitā as a result of the ongoing culture wars is a theme that runs āsubtlyā through this new workplace comedy created by and starring Brian Jordan Alvarez, which is putting it mildly to say the least. Centering on an Austin high school teacher who comes under fire after a student sees him making out with his boyfriend at school, itās a giddily up-front social satire that skewers not only the hypersensitivity of our current era but the counter-productive absurdity of an education system more concerned with placating political pressures than passing on knowledge; itās already emerged as a critical darling among the new shows of the Fall Season ā which is great news for Alvarez, a talented performer (best known as Jackās husband-to-be in the rebooted āWill and Graceā and his viral video content on Instagram and TikTok) overdue for the mainstream spotlight.
āLover Of Men: The Untold Story of Abraham Lincolnā (theaters, now playing; streaming/VOD, TBA this fall): Earnest, passionate, yet delivered with a light touch, this sure-to-be-controversial new doc addresses the much-speculated question of our iconic 16th presidentās sexuality with a trove of well-documented evidence, presented by a host of respected historians and bolstered by amusingly modernistic re-enactments of the Great Emancipatorās supposed intimate liaisons with various men during key parts of his life. More than that, it ties its narrative to the way Americaās attitudes and acceptance of LGBTQ people has evolved into contemporary times while also discrediting many modern assumptions about the ways the community has been treated in the past. It may not convince the die-hard doubters, but this polished and politically hopeful effort from filmmaker Shaun Peterson is as hard to dismiss as it is entertaining, and it definitely belongs on your watch list.
āSeeking Mavis Beaconā (theaters, Sept. 13): After a limited release on Sept. 6, this documentary expands nationwide this week with a āDIY detective storyā about the search for the unknown and un-credited real-life model whose image was used as the face of āMavis Beacon Teaches Typingā ā a widely used instructional computer typing program launched in 1987 ā that serves as a launch pad to explore a whole spectrum of sociological and philosophical nuances related to race, ethical marketing, and the impact of technology on culture and communication. With two queer women of color ā director Jazmin Jones and associate producer Olivia McKayla Ross ā leading the onscreen investigation, itās an unusual and thought-provoking think piece that is as entertaining as it is enlightening.
āThe Criticā (theaters, Sept. 13): Venerated queer elder and acting legend Ian McKellen returns to the screen in this deliciously dark tale of period intrigue from director Anand Tucker and writer Patrick Marber, in which a notoriously poison-penned theater critic (McKellen) in 1934 London attempts to preserve his career by manipulating an ambitious young actress (Gemma Arterton) into a sinister scheme to influence his paperās new editor (Mark Strong). Lush costumes and period settings, not to mention an assortment of top-notch thespians that also includes Alfred Enoch, Ben Barnes, and the always-exquisite Lesley Manville, all make this grimly macabre morality tale about the dangers of an unbridled ego an unmistakable product of the UK ā and itās likely fans of āBritTVā style costume dramas will be most appreciative of its somewhat old-fashioned charms. Even so, another deftly over-the-top performance from McKellen and an underlying exploration of hazards of leading an openly queer life within a comfortably homophobic status quo are enough to make it interesting for other audiences, too.
āUnfightableā (theaters, Sept. 13 in New York and Sept. 20 in LA; Fuse TV, October TBA): Another new doc tells the story of transgender MMA fighter Alana McLaughlin, from her difficult upbringing and service in the US Special Forces, through her transition and search for community in Portland, to her decision to seek professional status in an arena notorious for its bias against transgender athletes. A real-life narrative highlighting the bravery it can take to assert one’s true identity, this must-see offering from director Marc J. Perez only screens in New York and LA this month, but debuts on Fuse TV in October.
āWill and Harperā (theaters, Sept. 13 / Netflix, Sept. 27): Yet another doc ā or is it a non-fiction āroad trip buddy movie?ā ā is set apart from the rest by the star power on the screen: namely Will Farrell, who goes on a cross-country drive with close friend Harper Steele, a writer he met on his first day working on āSaturday Night Liveā in 1995. The twist? Steele, whom Farrell had only known as a man, had come out to him as a trans woman, and the trip is their way of forging a new path forward in their friendship āthrough laughter, tears, and many cans of Pringles.ā Funny, intimate, honest, and heartfelt, this is one of those movies that has Hollywood abuzz, and with good reason ā its unequivocal and highly visible exploration of trans identity comes with considerable industry clout in the form of its star (who is joined by fellow SNL alums like Seth Meyers, Tina Fey, Kristen Wiig, Colin Jost, Will Forte, Molly Shannon, Tim Meadows, and Paula Pell) and promotes unconditional love and acceptance toward trans people on the cusp of an election in which their rights and protections are very much at stake. Needless to say, this one should be near the top of your watch list.
āMy Old Assā (theaters, limited Sept. 13, wide Sept. 27): Just in time for the new psychedelic revolution comes this comical coming-of-age story in which free-spirited Elliott (Maisy Stella) takes an 18th birthday mushroom trip and finds herself face-to-face with her own 39-year-old self (Aubrey Plaza). Her āold assā has some pretty strong opinions about what her younger self should and shouldnāt be doing, and doesnāt hesitate to deliver them in between wisecracks ā causing Elliott to second-guess everything she thought she knew about family, love and what increasingly appears to be a transformative summer ahead. Written and directed by Megan Park, and also featuring Percy Hynes White, Maddie Ziegler, and Kerrice Brooks, this one is notable for featuring a bisexual central character, which is more than enough for us to put it on our list.
āHow to Die Aloneā (Hulu, Sept. 13): In this comedy series co-created by and starring Natasha Rothwell, Mel is a ābroke, fat, Black JFK airport employee who’s never been in love and forgotten how to dreamā ā until an accident leads to a near-death experience. Jarred into a new outlook on life, she throws herself into a quest to go out and start living by any means necessary. Rothwellās strong talents are enough to bring us to the table, but out gay co-star Conrad Ricamora (āHow to Get Away With Murder,ā āFire Islandā), as Melās best friend, definitely ups our interest level for this promising new entry.
āAgatha All Alongā (Disney +, Sept. 18): We all know Marvel has been struggling to please its fans with its ambitious slate of TV content, but one hands-down winner for the titanic franchise was certainly the imaginative and ultimately powerful āWandaVisionā ā and this new miniseries, which stems directly from that critically lauded entry into the MCU canon, is breathlessly anticipated as a consequence. It follows the further misadventures of villainous Agatha Harkness (Kathryn Hahn), who (according to the official synopsis) āfinds herself down and out of power after a suspicious goth teen [Joe Locke, āHeartstopperā] helps break her freeā from the spell that trapped her at the conclusion of the former series. When he asks her to take him down the legendary āWitchesā Road,ā a series of dangerous magical trials that might help her restore her powers, her interest is piqued, so the pair gathers a ādesperate covenā and sets off on the treacherous journey together. Hahnās reprisal of her fabulously campy supervillain role is likely to be the main attraction, but including the adorable Locke as her gay new teen familiar is a brilliantly irresistible touch.
āMonsters: The Lyle and Erik Menendez Storyā (Netflix, Sept.19): Ryan Murphy and Ian Brennanās true-crime anthology series āMonsterā follows up its award-winning āDahmerā saga by exploring the story of the real-life titular brothers, convicted in 1996 for the murders of their parents, JosĆ© and Mary Louise āKittyā Menendez ā successfully prosecuted on the argument that they were motivated by greed for the family fortune despite the brothersā claims of lifelong physical, emotional, and sexual abuse. It was a shocking, heavily publicized case, launching a surge in audience fascination with true crime, and letās face it ā nobody has quite the same golden touch in getting to the humanity behind these kinds of lurid tabloid tales as the prolific Murphy. Itās a must-watch, you can count on it ā though if itās anywhere near as disturbing as the showās inaugural season, it probably wonāt be a binge-watch. Javier Bardem and ChloĆ« Sevigny play the parents, with relative newcomers Cooper Koch and Nicholas Alexander Chavez as the boys.
āBrilliant Mindsā (NBC, Sept. 23) Out gay actor Zachary Quinto stars in this new medical procedural, loosely based on the life and work of Dr. Oliver Sacks, the famed late doctor whose work helped reconfigure the way we understand and treat neurological disorders ā but while the real Sacks, though gay, didnāt come out until late in life, the series āre-imaginesā his story into modern New York, giving Quintoās version of the doc the chance to not only be open about his sexuality, but to use some unorthodox practices to help his patients. It might sound a bit forced, but Quinto is always an interesting actor to watch, and any chance to get queer talent playing queer characters in queer stories is good enough to warrant a chance from us, too.
āGrotesquerieā (Sept. 25, FX): The seasonās second Ryan Murphy show is this miniseries about a small community unsettled by a wave of heinous crimes ā which feel to the townās lead investigator (Niecy Nash) to be eerily personal. Struggling with issues at home (and her own inner demons), she enlists the aid of a journalist nun (Micaela Diamond) with a difficult past of her own; together, this mismatched team strings together clues as they find themselves snared in a sinister web that only seems to raise more questions than answers. Yes, that all sounds pretty vague and evokes āAmerican Horror Storyā vibes without revealing anything ā but with Nash as its star and supporting players like Lesley Manville, Courtney B. Vance, and even Travis Kelce (yes, him) on the roster, itās bound to be a good time.
āJoker: Folies a Deuxā (theaters, Oct. 4): This sequel to 2019ās acclaimed āJokerā brings back both director Todd Phillips and star Joaquin Phoenix as failed comedian Arthur Fleck, continuing his re-imagined origin story into the iconic āBatmanā villain as it introduces him to the ālove of his lifeā ā soon-to-be fellow villain Harley Quinn (Lady Gaga) ā while incarcerated in Arkham Asylum. The mad mischief-makers naturally embark upon whatās described as āa doomed romantic misadventure,ā and frankly, we donāt know much more than that. But the trailers look amazing, and thereās no question of Phoenixās brilliance in a role heās already made his own. Even without those encouragements, though, thereās nothing thatās going to stop fans of queer diva Gaga from flocking to the theater to see her take on a character she seems already to have been destined to play ā and you can bet weāll be among them.
āSmile 2ā (theaters, Oct. 18): For horror fans, Halloween brings this sequel to the popular 2019 ādeath curseā chiller from filmmaker Parker Finn, this time following a global pop sensation (Naomi Scott) as she starts out on a new world tour, only to begin experiencing increasingly terrifying and inexplicable events. No, the premise doesnāt sound terribly original (and just as it didnāt in the first installment), but if Finn keeps the same level of visual and storytelling skills as the last time around, itās sure to be a delightfully terrifying thrill ride for those who dare.
āFanatical: The Catfishing of Tegan and Saraā (Hulu, Oct. 18): Our list closes with one final documentary, which chronicles the labyrinthine tale of how the influential queer indie rock band of the title fell victim to an insidious hacking scheme from a lone stalker, leading to an identity-theft and catfishing campaign that continued to terrorize both the two musicians and their global legion of fans for more than a decade. Tegan and Sara join documentary filmmaker and investigator Erin Lee Carr to unfold this real-world mystery is into āa thriller, a caper, a whodunnit, and an intimate personal journey rolled into one.ā Sounds good to us!
Arts & Entertainment
From music to fashion, catching up with Steve Grand
āAll American Boyā now focused on his clothing brand
Whatās the first thing that comes to mind when you think of gay singer/songwriter turned fashion designerĀ Steve Grand? Some folks will undoubtedly answer his breakout hit single, āAll American Boy,ā and the accompanying video. Both were significant in that the song was an unabashedly queer country tune with visuals to match. Of course, it didnāt hurt that Grand was model-handsome and had a flawless body on display. So far, we have his singing voice, songwriting chops, and impressive looks and physique.Ā Itās that gym body, and his own personal interest in the kinds of garments that show them off, that has led him to create his Grand Axis (shopGrandAxis.com) clothing line, featuring menās underwear and swimwear. Steve was kind enough to make time for an interview, and after you finish reading it, youāll want to follow him on his socials: @GrandAxis (Instagram), @GrandAxis (TikTok), and @Grand_Axis (Twitter). You wonāt be disappointed.
BLADE: Since the release of your debut single in 2013, the country-oriented āAll American Boy,ā several other male country artists, including Ty Herndon, Billy Gilman, Orville Peck, and TJ Osborne have come out as gay. Do you feel that your being an out musician had anything to do with that?
STEVE GRAND: I think, more than anything, it had to do with the major cultural shift that was happening across this country. According to the Gallup polls, public support for gay marriage went from 40% approval in May 2009, to 60% approval in May 2015. Gay marriage was a big topic of discussion in the early 2010s for a lot of reasons. You had artists like (Lady) Gaga frequently talking about her gay fans, you had gay characters coming out in TV shows; you had the repeal of āDonāt Ask Donāt Tellā in 2011, and then Obergefell in 2015. I think the internet, and the rise of social media had more to do with it than anything. Before social media, corporate press and big movie and TV studios drove the narrative on these sorts of things. And because they are beholden to advertisers, which are more conservative and risk-averse, they would often avoid even acknowledging LGBTQ+ people for fear it would upset large sections of the country. But I think social media gave regular people an opportunity to be their authentic selves. And it gave artists/content creators like me the ability to make music and videos that could be seen by millions without needing the backing of a big record label.
BLADE: Almost 10 years ago, in 2015, you released your full-length debut album āAll American Boy.ā When you look back on that time, how would you describe it?
GRAND: It was a whirlwind. I remember being cognizant of the fact that it was all moving fast and that I needed to make a conscious effort to stop and take in all the cool, special, unique experiences I was having. Looking back, I donāt think I listened to that voice inside me enough. I always felt like my best days were ahead; that my moment had yet to come, and that I just needed to hunker down and keep working. And, unfortunately, that often kept me from embracing the present moment.
Itās funny, my best memories of that time end up being all the times in between, like the road trips with my tour manager and whatever members of the band I was traveling with. I was always thinking about what I needed to be doing better or focused on the show, but it is those conversations on the road when we were tired, hungover, and stressing about where we needed to be, traveling from one venue to the next, that I remember most fondly.
BLADE: What kind of music are you listening to for enjoyment these days?
GRAND: I am loving the new Billie Eilish record. And the country record Post Malone just made. I continue to appreciate him more and more. Whenever I see him in interviews I am just so impressed with how centered and genuine he is; how he seems to know exactly who he is. There is a real depth and a goodness in him, and I think that really comes through in his voice.
BLADE: Am I remembering correctly that for a while, you left Chicago for LA? If thatās correct, what was that experience like for you?
GRAND: I spent some time in LA while I was making my first record. I stayed with a friend of a friend. Funny enough, I had never met them before the day I showed up at their door with my bags. It was on my 24th birthday. They gave and gave to me and never expected anything in return. I donāt think I ever went out and did any nightlife there. The friends I stayed with had a large group of friends and threw a lot of parties and events, so I really benefited from having their sort of built-in group of guys to hang out with when I stayed out there.
BLADE: How long have you been back in Chicago?
GRAND: Other than the several months Iāve spent in LA, my summers in Ptown, and winters in Puerto Vallarta, Iāve been in the Chicago area the whole time.
BLADE: What do you like best about being in Chicago?
GRAND: The lakefront in the summer. The fact that the crumby winters are something we all endure together, which means we also experience the beauty and aliveness of the spring and summer together. The winters are so cold and dead, but it makes you appreciate the beautiful weather in the summer, and all the plant life that comes back to life. The whole city comes alive when it starts getting nice. Everyoneās mood is lifted and there is a real sense that we need to make the most of the summer because itās fleeting. I also love the people. Chicago is not as transient as cities like LA and New York where most people are not from there. Most Chicagoans have roots here. And people are genuinely nice and kind.
BLADE: In 2019, you launched Grand Axis, a clothing line designed by you that includes underwear, swimwear, shorts, socks, T-shirts, and hats. How did you come up with the name Grand Axis?
GRAND: I was about two weeks from going into production with the name āGrand.ā I stupidly assumed I could use it because it was my name, but decided I should hire a trademark attorney just to be sure. I was told there were about 200 other companies that could have a copyright infringement claim, so I needed to come up with a name very quickly. I used word generators and all sorts of other methods of coming up with names. I went with āAxisā because I just like how it sounded together; I thought the word āAxisā was very strong, and I liked that it had the letter X in it, which just looks cool and strong.
BLADE: Was designing this kind of clothing a lifelong passion of yours, or was it something you stumbled upon and decided to run with it?
GRAND: Like a lot of gay men, I had my sexual awakening in the menās underwear aisle at our local department store [laughs]. And personally, Iāve always found an attractive guy in a Speedo, briefs, or jockstrap even more sexy than seeing him naked. Even when I was a college student working a $10 an hour job and didnāt even have many regular clothes, I was buying more of this attire for myself than anything else. I started to get very fixated on the design and fit. I didnāt know how to sew, but I learned enough to make basic alterations to design and fit. Then I found some sites that made custom pieces. I began drawing my own patterns and having them sewn up. When I posted them on Instagram, Iād get lots of guys asking where they could buy them. And at that point I decided I should just produce them en masse. I thought it would be a side gig. I had no idea all that was involved. I think if I knew how hard it would be I may not have started it [laughs]! So, my ignorance kind of worked out to my benefit, because now I am deep in it and Iām happy I made it all work. So far at least.
BLADE: Whatās the most rewarding part of Grand Axis?
GRAND: Going to the beach and seeing guys I donāt even know wearing my brand! It is so rewarding to see guys enjoying and looking great in something I spent hundreds of hours obsessing over every detail. That makes it all so worth it.
BLADE: Whatās the most challenging part?
GRAND: A few things: Delegating. Dealing with factories to get them to make the pieces exactly how I want. Always having to make decisions about every aspect of the products and the business. The stress of wiring tens of thousands of dollars of my own money before I see any product. At the end of the day, if the factory goes under, you really donāt have any recourse. Iāve heard horror stories from other brands.
BLADE: You shared your recent pec tear workout injury, as well as your recovery, on social media. Are you fully back to 100% or still taking it easy?
GRAND: I am very grateful to be able to say recovery has been easy and painless. I had an excellent surgeon. The first surgeon I saw said it could not be repaired so I am very glad I got a second opinion. The worst part has been not being able to move much weight with it. There are so many exercises I canāt do, Iām afraid to say I have only had a handful of workouts in the last 10 weeks. I will be 75% healed at 12 weeks, but it will still be a few months before I can lift heavy. But in the scheme of things, I am just grateful I had a problem that could be fixed.
BLADE: Your second album, āNot The End of Meā was released in 2018. Because most people came to know you as a singer/songwriter first, Iād be remiss if I didnāt ask if there was more music from you in the works.
GRAND: I still will write music, but most songs are incomplete. I wish I could say I had another record ready to go, but when the pandemic happened and I wasnāt able to perform and lost 90% of my income that year, I had to make Grand-Axis my full-time job to pay the bills. And now that it has, I struggle to find the time and creative energy to make that happen. But I am still hopeful I will get back to it one of these days.
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